i dont even know how to start this, because holy shit. ig to start off, the PLOT, oh my god, the plot. holy fucking shit lmaooo i was expectign something completely different back when i first started reading this, and im honestly so glad it ended up like this, because it was so beautifully done. i really enjoyed each character's backstories and how they were properly made and all, and while they aren't the most unique, it was still such a step above other bls because of how nuanced the characters were - you could never really hate anyone in the end, because those backstories really helped shape them - this author did such a good job at showing the complexity of a person, how no one is truly bad or good, and the influence of past experiences - especially with bei guang. ik a lot of people hated him, but his character, as i expected, was explained, and im so glad everyone had a happy ending. i love the author so much because of that (i always love a good tragic "villain"), and the author's talk about the importance of knowing someone fully before being able to say you love them is a philosiphy i stand by SO much, and so many people nowadays forget that and think theyre in love but only with whatever they know about the person, which usually isn't a lot - but thats another tangent for another time, the author also had a little exo reference in a ringtone which was dope i really feel like me and the author would get along pretty well ong but even that aside, their relationship and the way it progressed was so natural, i loved it so much, i got a lotta pangs hehaehj this was one of the only bls ive ever read which was able to make me cry at one part, i dont remember when exactly but i believe it was related to xiang yang and his mother (yeah it was for sure now that i remember), and the way that his mom passed while they were in an argument reminds me of the times which my parents are always like "if we die tmr and this is the last convo we have will u feel good ab urself" ik i wont and this reminded me of that, this author really knows how to hit me personally but regardless, those are just a few of the things i love about this. this will DEFINITELY be a recommend, i for sure enjoyed this and i hope theyll have future works (idk if they do, it says on mgo theres a couple but they dont look similar at all so its prolly not true), either way they did a PHENOMENAL job and this was honestly just an emotional rollercoaster (chinese manhuas istg they always hit different) - all in all, 100000/10 stars side note: one of those nights, key and crush (shit matched WAY too well and it helped put so much more emotion in reading it)
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