ReviewRaptor's manga / #Author THINKS they know how to write a traumatized MC(1)

Alright, hear me out. Lemme cook, it's hot now but we'll cool down. :v (Critique ahead, so beware.) The base story is very interesting, the art is decent and the characters around the MC intriguing (although a bit too shallow in personality). The MC however, is what ruins this story. And that is an absolute dealbreaker. I like me some drama but the already way too obnoxious trope of hating people that have not done ANYTHING WRONG to you in a re-run is just getting on my nerves SO very much. Don't get me wrong, this trope CAN work, if written in a good way, but this is definitely NOT it. She's not careful and pessimistic due to trauma, she's behaving like what someone who THINKS they know how trauma works would write a character. The way the author portrays her makes her more annoying, dumb and weird instead of a damaged person that has to deal with trauma and tries to adjust to current happenings. The author HAS made her realize very early on that things have changed, she acknowledged that!, yet on the very next page she ignores it and acts like that realization never happened. This is a HUGE fault when writing a traumatized character, because that realization would have a big impact and remain in memory. It would make her at least second guess each action from others and make her at least think about it having a positive aspect. But what annoyed me the most so far (16 chapters in) is this: She pretends her references and ideas of a situation are reality and treats them as a fact. In some sense it is similar to how trauma can work (in a VERY vague way), but not how it's done in this story and the different moments. I have endured 16 chapters of her obnoxious attititude and while i was very understanding at first, this got obnoxious VERY quick and downright stupid. I mean, the fvck you talking about 'horrifying ceremony'?? HE GAVE YOU A FRUIT FFS. X'D The only thing barbaric and horrifying was your idea of pretending the red juice was blood and wolves tear prey apart and eat together. Stop acting like that's the same. Your analogies are NOT reality. This is NOT Twitter. Please stop this nonsense, dear author. At this point it is NOT the other characters that are in the wrong, IT IS ONLY HER. And I doubt it'll change in a realistic, normal manner based on the bad writing. The author is continuously re-chewing the past only when it fits to make her seem more miserable, justify her attitude or make the other people (who are ALL nice to her btw!) look horrible despite that not being in relation to the current reality. This already gives me Mary Sue vibes and Mary Sue's are NOT good characters despite 3rd wave feminists thinking otherwise. X'D The writing is horrible tbh. It runs the path of using happenstances from the past to be anything inbetween pitiful towards oneself up to being an obnoxious idiot or rude towards others even. Which is NOT the way to go. It does not make your character likable at all. And it will not make people want to read more about this character. I'm sorry, but THIS is not how you use this trope. THIS is precisely why people learned to hate it. And the misplaced, seemingly random, funny chibi haha panels do NOT help this entire mess. It makes it seem even more like the author doesn't know what they are doing. Which I hope changes in the future. Improving their writing skills is very much needed at this stage. To sum it up; the author failed majestically at making the MC likable and despite her acknowledging current life being different. It feels really more like the author simply THINKS this is what traumatized people are like (like people on Twitter and TikTok always do) instead of researching the nuances needed to make each negative reaction actually realistic, plausible and relatable/understandable. The author should research some more about how to alter these kinda characters to make them understandable and likable. This is KEY to fictional works. Sadly this one missed the mark. It's likely a good read for younger/less experienced readers, but seasoned readers should probably stay away from this one. The story seems to have changed in chapter 44, but I do not know if it was done in a good way. Not sure if I'll bother reading more tbh, nothing in this story is appealing tbh.