Mameiha's manga / #sad past(3)

I love this manga, truly, I do. But DAMN, it makes me cry for Niki every time I read it. I'm pretty dependent on my husband, not nearly at the level that Niki depends on Shouji, but if anything happened to my husband, I'd be up Shit's Creek without a paddle. When Shouji returns to Niki and saves him, poor Niki is SO skinny. I genuinely worried that Shouji would snap him in half just making love to him.