just_m3h's manga / #suicide(7)

weird. not really something I would re-read

Feels incomplete and uncomfortable. And the uke's feelings were certainly being trivialised. Just hated the attmpted rapist and how the seme led him on as well. Left a bad feeling. 3.5

Minato is certainly difficult to handle. Between his awful past and jaded view of the world, Shizuma has his hands full. Thankfully, Shizuma is no over muscled overly passionate ditz who jumps in without thinking things through. He has long term hopes and plans for this relationship and is just as invested and madly in love as Minato is. That's why it works.

Chap 1: Good for nothing Saitou who is a struggling author without a penny to his name and no value of money and Mayuzumi who takes him in. Mayuzumi is in love with and has casual sex with the already married Saitou. 3.5* Chap 2: Aki and Yamato who share a dorm room, are boyfriends and can't keep their hands off each other 4* Chap 3: En is the lewd playboy apothecary and Tao is his assistant who has to put up with his sh*t. An aphrodisiac may get involved in the ensuing seduction. Sequel in tachi neko soudatsu 3.5* Chap 4: Fucked up beyond repair love triangle between non-blood related siblings, Kyokou and Haru and Shinobu, Kyouko's husband. The fact that he doesn't remember the sex gives me rape vibes. 2* Chap 5: Very short and bitter oneshot about snow that melts in the face of a long spring. Supernatural. 4* Chap 6: Maki, who's never lost a fight and Sugawa who was a leader in his peer group in his younger days but got overshadowed over the years and cannot stand losing to anyone. Not normally my kinda story but I can't help but enjoy how crazy Maki is about Sugawa, accepting him, complexes and all. 4.2* Chapter 7: Micchan, who was battling crippling depression and lost, and Jun who couldn't let him go. Uber dpressing. Jun never realised how serious Micchan's suicidal talk was and it warped him forever 2.5* Chap 8: Akashi, the servant and the chained Guardian Deity he was brought by force to service. Akashi is a pure little cinnamon bun. Glad the Guardian was gentle with him. The household can rot. Hypocrites. 5* Overall: 3.6*

Kunimi decides to end his miserable life but get transported back to his high school days instead. Or does he...? We all need a Gaku in our lives. Seriously. Patient to a degree I didn't know people could be. Loyal to a fault. Man. I want one. Kunimi is so brave to come out to see him without knowing anything. True, he fucked up by turning away. Choosing to end it all. But he redeems himself. Both in the “afterlife” and in reality. I loved the plot! Did not go where I expected, at all. 5!!!!

It's gruesome and depressing the way most of these twisted Korean historical yaoi are. There's slavery, rape, death, flickers of incest, obsession, class warfare, unbearable amounts of abuse and staggering debt. It's not an easy read, but you can't help reading because you have to know they get to be happy. You have to. Ch 29

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