Hoshigari sugi da yo, Sumida-kun!
1: Kinda vaanuvaa but fine? Cute-ish overall. Though, that kinda naivette is a little off putting, the sex was hot. 3.8 2: Sorry, hard pass. Underage and incest and positions of power. Like, fuck, no. 1 3: Third story was okay. Another one with a huge age gap, but still fine: but the second spoiled everything for me 3* Overall: 2.6= 3
Retro BL
Chap 1: Good for nothing Saitou who is a struggling author without a penny to his name and no value of money and Mayuzumi who takes him in. Mayuzumi is in love with and has casual sex with the already married Saitou. 3.5* Chap 2: Aki and Yamato who share a dorm room, are boyfriends and can't keep their hands off each other 4* Chap 3: En is the lewd playboy apothecary and Tao is his assistant who has to put up with his sh*t. An aphrodisiac may get involved in the ensuing seduction. Sequel in tachi neko soudatsu 3.5* Chap 4: Fucked up beyond repair love triangle between non-blood related siblings, Kyokou and Haru and Shinobu, Kyouko's husband. The fact that he doesn't remember the sex gives me rape vibes. 2* Chap 5: Very short and bitter oneshot about snow that melts in the face of a long spring. Supernatural. 4* Chap 6: Maki, who's never lost a fight and Sugawa who was a leader in his peer group in his younger days but got overshadowed over the years and cannot stand losing to anyone. Not normally my kinda story but I can't help but enjoy how crazy Maki is about Sugawa, accepting him, complexes and all. 4.2* Chapter 7: Micchan, who was battling crippling depression and lost, and Jun who couldn't let him go. Uber dpressing. Jun never realised how serious Micchan's suicidal talk was and it warped him forever 2.5* Chap 8: Akashi, the servant and the chained Guardian Deity he was brought by force to service. Akashi is a pure little cinnamon bun. Glad the Guardian was gentle with him. The household can rot. Hypocrites. 5* Overall: 3.6*
I Wanna Die Before I'm 30
Bruh, the fuck's up with this rating? May have started out seemingly about useless idiots who have no goals in life, but was in actuality a tale of two abused and one depressed soul, all overcoming their loneliness and healing together. I an so proud of Ai for making something out of his life. And I am so, so glad Ryo and Aya got out. The sex was hot too. I loved the angst and the strength of their feelings for each other. Never wavered over five years of absence. Loved it
Keisenjou no Cantata
1, 3: Story about Youji, an amateur manga artist, and how he falls for Sawa, his sepai who always wears gloves for an unknown reason. The story was incredible. And incredibly painful. Yaoi rarely deal with issues like self harm and trauma well, but this was amazing. I wish them all the happiness. 5 2, 4: Suo and Minato meet online as bl fanfic writer and fan artist. Once they meet irl, their bond strengthens and Suo eventually realizes he is in love with Minato. Only, Minato has been in love with him for just as long, if not longer. So much pain in their desperation, but so heartwarming and sweet, too. Suo will never ever know how much he saved Minato. Lord. This child needed that break. 4.7 The entire collection has such depth and evokes the strangest sense of nostalgia. Bittersweet but heavy on the sweet, and heartbreakingly beautiful.
Bye Bye
Seoyoo (omega), alone in the world after his brother passed away in an accident, was contemplating suicide on a deserted bridge when a reckless rich kid without a driver's license came careening into the railing. Soon enough, Seoyoo finds his life full of the kid and his scary looking brother, Seonghoon (alpha). My poor baby. Seoyoo's sense of selfworth is so low, my God. Did he have NO positive reinforcement growing up, ffs?! At least he's got that café owner to be his friend, now (suspicious, though he may be). I also love his relationship with the kid. I feel so bad for him, though. His uncle is a piece of shit, his exes are the absolute worst. Honestly, he's had such a hard life. I really, really want to be happy about Seknghoon's presence in his life. It seems like he would do anything make him happy. But that's also the problem... he really would do anything... 5 Edit: Ch 33. It's still phenomenally good
I’m a Villainess, Can I Die?
A story that I can't stop reading. Heartbreaking isekai about abuse, depression and suicide. But also about hope and love. Since the last update is about her barely surviving her second suicide attempt (the first one landed her in the alternate dimension), the wait for the update where she opens her eyes is killing me. Edit: She's woken up, and most of the way out of the woods. And! And she's giving the magician so muchbhope that I just want to believe T.T Please! Let it be Aiden! They're so perfect together Ch 62
Hoshi wo Kazoeru Koto