BeMyLover's manga / #smut(71)

I did enjoy the read of Jaehan and Heegyeom but I found myself pretty turned off by Jaehan as a character most times. He was beyond brutal and honestly down right cruel to most people around him even Heegyeom: like his relationship with Taewoon is honestly sad; that man obviously just wants what's best for him but all he ever did was beat the bricks off him at times or just yell at him. And the whole scheme he did that destroyed Heegyeoms acting career was so juvenile and stupid. He also sent that man to jail cause he figured out he not only was gay but liked him. Like what

It was a comforting read. I enjoyed my time with Yeowoon/Ed and Glenn/Creed. It was a sweet ride into the relationship and the sex scenes felt...real honestly. Something about the way the looked at one another felt real. The only thing that sucked was Chang Liu, I hated that instead of finally maturing and just admitting his feelings for Yeowoon like a good man, he resorted to SA him. Like ugh...such a stain of what could have been a bittersweet ending to his one sided affection. Like his grandmother being cruel to him sucked but for him to do that to the only person by his side showed how cruel he really is. Other then that, it was a enjoyable read!

I found myself very compelled by Kang Moo and Kirin. I am actually shocked we got such a sweet ending then it could have been, sure that last panel was the bittersweet part of it that Kang Moo is losing himself to his desire to kill but it's beautifully written that he sticks by Kirin for his own choice. He can easily just leave but the fact he leaves the door open for Kirin to go instead shows he's not trying to be the one to part from him. There's a twisted part of him that enjoys having Kirin around even if for a fleeting moment. And for Kirin to stay instead of just washing away this man that will slowly eat away at him is poetic. He reached out to this man (even if Kang Moo opened the door) and he is choosing to stay by him...just poetic

I adora Soo In and Chi Hwan, I found them the perfect opposites attract and I'm not gonna lie; I saw this getting dark than what it ended as which is still a sweet twist in my book. Because Sung Ha definitely would have been tied in a basement for the amount of years he abused Soo In. God I always hate self looting as people that can't accept themselves so they hurt and beat on someone who honestly loves them. It's such a cowardly way to live. And I honestly felt sad for Joo Hyun, because he was stuck between a rock and a hard place and made a terrible decision to protect Chi Hwan which costed him everything. I wished there was a small forgiveness on both his and Chi Hwans part for their lack of understanding of one another. Especially with the fact Joo Hyun was being raped repeatedly and he was left to pick up the pieces. Either way I liked that as long as Soo In is alive they can live happily ever after but that small dark idea that if he dies Chi Hwan will live on in misery is a bittersweet addition.

I did enjoy Young Jo and Hyun Woo's relationship and the description of BDSM is nice not as perfect as I like. The zero use of boundaries and safe words before just straight up jumping into this relationship was a bit chaotic but I know Yaoi's gotta Yaoi lol. But what I really knocked a point off for was Young Jo's whole personality towards his staff like that shit was borderline abuse. I get it's supposed to be symbolic to his need for a Dom/Sadistic partner but for someone who cared about his work appearance I didn't care for him spilling his needs and annoyance onto others without their consent. Also his just a dick like 80% of the time and Hyunwoo is fucking oblivious that it's kind of sad.

I didn't even realize how invested I was in Yeojin and Munhyeok's story until these last 5 chapters. My heart was racing so fast when they reunited! It's toxic and honestly a bit sad how dependent both of them our own one another but I can't bring myself to hate anything about it. They're devotion is commendable and I happy they can find solace and love in all of the pain and emptiness life gave them. Also both of them at 40+ years old was too fine! Love a good older gentleman story! I will say the Jeong Mu and dad were kind of disappointing villains since we never really saw them in action or do anything damaging. And I feel sad that Seojin saw what he saw both it was the karma Yeojin deserved for planning to hurt that boy anyway to get his revenge. I hope Seojin finds peace in his dad's decisions and lives happily with his mom and friends.