BeMyLover's manga / #mature(25)

I'm revising my feelings and changing just a bit of my feelings about BJ Alex. It's been such a long time since I read it that I honestly forgot how I felt about Dong Gyun and Ji Won, but after a fresh read...I can say I actually like them equally. Though it was a healthy start to their relationship, I can't say it may me hate Ji Won, he's not this super red flag I remember people painting him as. Yes he was selfish and a prick, but honestly Dong Gyun over stepped a lot with his feelings. Ji Won should have never started the relationship but in the end they are young adults and Dong Gyun should have recognize he was ready for just a situationship. Anyway they were cute, but at last I still vote Chan Woo and Myung Dae as my #1 couple, not only are they extremely hot but I just found them enjoyable to read on. Wish their story was longer, because as an adult myself Myung Dae could absolutely be my Dom

I did enjoy the read of Jaehan and Heegyeom but I found myself pretty turned off by Jaehan as a character most times. He was beyond brutal and honestly down right cruel to most people around him even Heegyeom: like his relationship with Taewoon is honestly sad; that man obviously just wants what's best for him but all he ever did was beat the bricks off him at times or just yell at him. And the whole scheme he did that destroyed Heegyeoms acting career was so juvenile and stupid. He also sent that man to jail cause he figured out he not only was gay but liked him. Like what

I found myself wanting a longer story for Boris and Seyun. The encapsulation of self harm, trauma, sex work, and rape is done well. I knew immediately why I loved Seyun, the idea of emotionally hating yourself before others can is a perfect mimic of victims of trauma. If I hate me first no one can hurt me more. I am not a fan of Michael walking around freely though. The man and his psycho "friend" just causally kidnapping Seyun again just to rape him and try to break him all over again really had my eye twitching. I wanted Boris to come swinging with a bat. I also loved the ending monologue to Tracy from Seyun as a thank you *chefs kiss*. Also the artist really needs to be hugged for giving a beautiful color cast representation of young black folks. It made me so excited to see them as characters as a black women myself!!

This story honestly lost me at times. I felt like the overall plot could have been better and fleshed out. I think skipping into Jaehyun and Seojin relationship was too fast, I think it would grounded me more had I saw how much Jaehyun relied on minwoo more. It would have made me understand the drive for him to try and be free of that controlling bastard. Plus the man literally pushed that young man into traffic and we get nothing about that being at least attempted murder?! Also I could barely connect to Jaehyun as a character at times because he never once acted human. Sure his hyper sexuality is a form of defense but I don't know...it didn't come off like a young man trying to hide his fear but more of a natural prick that uses anymore for his benefit. There is so much missing, Seojin's mother and her significance to why he even gives a fuck about a man he barely knew, The Chairwoman and why she gave a fuck about Minwoo (Is it Controlling? Love? Hate?). Also the relationship between Jaehyun and Seojin and hell even Minwoo was confusing. He said he loved Minwoo but like did he?? It felt like he was using that man's power just as much as Minwoo was using him for gratification. And Seojin and Jaehyun never had softer moments except for the end and it didn't catch the heart like I thought it would. This story needed more polishing, sadly I wouldn't read this again.