BeMyLover's manga / #Drama(47)

Enjoyed the 1st story the most. Wished there was detail to their story actually. Very well written; only reason this doesn't get a 5/5 is because I'm not a big fan of the idea a watching 12 or 13 yr olds have sex with what seems to be a either a very mature looking teenager or 20 something yr old man. Makes it seem pretty pedo like. But good over all.

I can say for sure this is by far my favorite romantic/melodrama BL manga I've read in a long time. I loved every moment with each character except for Young Dei (I have my reasons). I enjoyed how much Yoon, Taejoo or Taejung (the manga kept changing it), and Kwon-Ju were as individuals and lovers. I adored how well spoken all of them were and all of their reactions were correct, honest, heart breaking, and honestly fulfilling to read. It's so hard to find BL Mangas that take the time to let you grasp the characters as a whole. The situation from the beginning was devastating to read and how it unfolds encapsulates how hard losing and letting go of love can be. I could absolutely read this again and all honesty if this ever takes off in popularity I would love to have a series about this. And my distaste for Young Seo is simple. I do not hate him for loving Taejoo and I do not hate him for wanting to hold onto a man he watch break over and over again and just as he puts him together the one person that could do it again comes back. I hate him as a individual, I am not fond of those the cling so endlessly to what's already not truly yours that you lose yourself in the making. You could argue that Yoon was also clingy but you would be over looking that fact this man was in a coma for 5 years and that 5 years felt like yesterday to him. Young Seo was carelessly mean to a man that just wanted his life back and was just grasping his new reality that will never be. If he had just accepted that Taejoo was his in that moment and push his selfish feelings to the side he would have probably been able to salvage his relationship but that's also assuming Taejoo would have stay anyway of course. Anyway I highly recommend

I found myself wanting a longer story for Boris and Seyun. The encapsulation of self harm, trauma, sex work, and rape is done well. I knew immediately why I loved Seyun, the idea of emotionally hating yourself before others can is a perfect mimic of victims of trauma. If I hate me first no one can hurt me more. I am not a fan of Michael walking around freely though. The man and his psycho "friend" just causally kidnapping Seyun again just to rape him and try to break him all over again really had my eye twitching. I wanted Boris to come swinging with a bat. I also loved the ending monologue to Tracy from Seyun as a thank you *chefs kiss*. Also the artist really needs to be hugged for giving a beautiful color cast representation of young black folks. It made me so excited to see them as characters as a black women myself!!

I did enjoy Paid, the pacing could have been fleshed a little cleaner. I wanted to know more about HeeGyum as a character then this mysterious asshole. Sure we got some decent glimpses of his distaste for his brother but I want to see him do it, mostly everything except the one scene where he calls HeeJae a "half-wit" was done in flashbacks, I wanted to see him more cunning and callous. It would have made me truly fall into HeeJae shoes. Also, I'm not a fan of allowing HeeJae to be so damn forgiving because he loves Taekyung. I'm not saying I didn't want this ending, I did but I needed Taekyung to gravel more, earn his way into HeeJae life again not a few tears and HeeJae just brushing it off. That man plotted this revenge for years, he was planning to ruin HeeJae, he slept with him, used him, then to add fuel to the fire he locked him up in a mental institution! Like that's not something most people can just hug out... Also I get HeeJae is a bit slower then others and it's for HaHa's but he I was hoping to really see him break a bit after finding out a man I began to trust and open himself to emotionally and physically was plotting on him and his life and then locked him up. He needed that moment to realize he can't just rely on others to get by, he needed that moment to really push him into his next phase. This would have been a good point to have HeeJae disappear to better himself and let Taekyung grow and wallow for a bit. Over all I enjoyed it and found myself entertained for the most part.

I found myself very compelled by Kang Moo and Kirin. I am actually shocked we got such a sweet ending then it could have been, sure that last panel was the bittersweet part of it that Kang Moo is losing himself to his desire to kill but it's beautifully written that he sticks by Kirin for his own choice. He can easily just leave but the fact he leaves the door open for Kirin to go instead shows he's not trying to be the one to part from him. There's a twisted part of him that enjoys having Kirin around even if for a fleeting moment. And for Kirin to stay instead of just washing away this man that will slowly eat away at him is poetic. He reached out to this man (even if Kang Moo opened the door) and he is choosing to stay by him...just poetic

I adora Soo In and Chi Hwan, I found them the perfect opposites attract and I'm not gonna lie; I saw this getting dark than what it ended as which is still a sweet twist in my book. Because Sung Ha definitely would have been tied in a basement for the amount of years he abused Soo In. God I always hate self looting as people that can't accept themselves so they hurt and beat on someone who honestly loves them. It's such a cowardly way to live. And I honestly felt sad for Joo Hyun, because he was stuck between a rock and a hard place and made a terrible decision to protect Chi Hwan which costed him everything. I wished there was a small forgiveness on both his and Chi Hwans part for their lack of understanding of one another. Especially with the fact Joo Hyun was being raped repeatedly and he was left to pick up the pieces. Either way I liked that as long as Soo In is alive they can live happily ever after but that small dark idea that if he dies Chi Hwan will live on in misery is a bittersweet addition.

I'm giving this a four out five because the one thing I wished that was fixed through out the whole story was Kyujin respected Chiwoos boundaries better. I felt he often asserted the Kyujin stop doing things the way he did and he was insistently do the opposite. I kind of worked me at some point but obviously that's my only pep peeve. JiHyun...well he's a son of bitch and he truly takes after their father. I'm the type of person that holds people with trauma to a certain criteria because as much I understand the having abusive parents can be horrible and JiHyun deserved better there, he absolutely gets even less respect from me because of what he did to his ONLY best friend. He knew he was putting Chiwoo into a box like a damn toy and it hurt to see he much he manipulated the way he kept dancing around his actions. He does not deserve better and his best better he could be is just living quietly and humbled until maybe some will pick him off the ground.