pluckaduck's manga / #Suicide(8)

ch 46. what the fuck is going on?? so we have mc who wants to abandon everything and feels no purpose in life. he meets an idol, who wants to commit a lovers' suicide for some reason. she is empty, like a fish who will drift along anywhere as per one's will. she is married to a weird novelist with whom she has an apathetic(?) relationship and he is connected to mc's mother (a character in his book is based off of her). and she has a mysterious past of her own. she's sleeping with mc's childhood friend/bully's father but she also has a weird relationship with the said friend/bully, who is strangely obsessed with mc. mc's teacher is a nutcase. she deeply longs for a purposeful life but is stuck in a tedious job and life. she takes care of mc for her own pleasure. so she's unhealthily obsessed and protective of him. mc's girl friend struggles with self-esteem and suffocating restrictions imposed by her family who wants to control her life. everyone is so miserable. ch 99. its so fucking complex. that friend/bully was actually in love with mc's mom but she used him. he forced himself to believe he was in love with mc bc of his hurt, thus becoming obsessed with "protecting" him. but no, he just didn't want to believe he killed mc's father bc of mc's mom. mc's mom was coerced by her own shitty mother to prostitute herself since she was 14 and that's what got her so twisted. she wanted to be saved or die with her lover but her first love, the novelist, was too cowardly and stricken with loss over the impossibility to take her virginity that he gave the cold shoulder. so ig that's why she tried to commit a lovers's suicide with her son, who was his replacement. the teacher was so obsessed with helping mc get away from the town bc she wanted it to be reciprocated; she wanted him to whisk her away. nagi is like the least unlikable so far.

each of the three mcs are relatable yet the problems and angst are also rather standard cliche. it's relatively fleshed out, but there is minimal chara development. the paneling and camera shots are great, and really invoked some emotions.

premise and plot points were interesting, but no. the topic of religion/forgiveness/atonement vs one of the most heinous acts of sexual nature needs to be tread very very very carefully. this story is a shallow attempt at that. the psyche of the mc and his epiphany needs to be explored more, bc its beyond irrational that mc could find it within him to forgive the ml. 15 yrs of his life were ruined without family or friends, and it's likely that if his inmates had found out why he was in prison, he would've been killed, after prison it's just constant fear and dread and people which with he cannot form relationships bc his past always reach their ears. so it's even more ridiculous that mc came to love him. the ml was not developed well enough-- i mean he has the personality and the past, but what about his values? if the story was longer to go really in-depth with ml's past and the plot points and their relationship, it could've been good and worth pondering over even with the controversial elements. it could've offered some believable insight as to why he could ever EVER love a child rapid-murderer who did nothing when he was framed and took advantage of his loneliness to have sex when they met again.