U stopped at 39 but skipped around cuz u got impatient, read 50~70ish and 100+
U knew couldn't take the angst that's to come yet so u stopped at 39 before it gets even worst for ShenYu
I don't know how I feel....
Junxuanxiao really sucks. I kept thinking "Asshole" "THIS FUCKING ASSHOLE." "Kill This Jerk!" "SCREW YOU!!!!!!!" and so on...
Idk why but I do want them to be together. But I want Junxuanxiao to suffer and regret. I wanted the misunderstandings resolved and have him be better but-! He admits that he deliberately misunderstood and let all those attacks on ShenYu happened... just how... how could you??? Yes it was also everyone's meddling and manipulation that things were bad but Yunxuanxiao behavior/reaction/treatment made it worse. He shouldn't have act that way. He deserves to be hated. ShenYu never really betrayed him in the beginning; when Yunxuanxiao said "do you trust me so little?!" or something like that near the beginning, all I could think about the later chapters were that same thing!!!! Like u asked him that but WHAT LITTLE TRUST DO YOU HAVE FOR HIM!!!!! From the very beginning u never trusted him!!!! U always blamed him! U always thought negatively while all he wanted was your love! HE LOVED YOU AND YOU KNEW IT BUT U TREATED HIM LIKE THAT! WHAT THE FUCK!!! WTF!! FUCK U! FUCK U!! FUCK U! FUCK YOU!!!!!!! You didn't have to act like that, you acted like an immature shitty asshole insecured brat. He deserves better, yet while he does hate you he also still loves you... and I think that's a lil bit why I still want to support u 2...
I want ShenYu to live happily. I want him to be cherished. I want him to be loved. And tho I can see how u do that in your own awkward terrible horrble way, he always gets hurt. He's been so hurt by you yet he still loved you... I don't get it but I want his love to succeed even tho u crushed it time and time again. Thinking about it more... I don't want u guys together anymore actually. U don't deserve it. You'll continue causing him pain even if it's no longer intentional. I don't want him to be empress, I want him to have a peaceful life. I want him to be free. But somehow being 'free' seems impossible for him as time goes on.
If only there wasn't so much miscommunication... from the beginning their relationship was doomed.
I want just ShenYu happy, safe, and free.
Let him fall in love with someone else who'll treat him nice and love him wholeheartedly for him.
Tho I sorta admit u really do love him for him but u didn't understand, you treated him like shit, you didn't know how to love or express it; its too late for you now. U only mistreated him. I know that that was the best that shifty u could do at the time and now ur trying to change but what I'm saying is ur best isn't good enough! It's not good enough. You don't deserve him and you never will. I think u were just lucky that he fell in love with u and that u were his first love. Ur no a decent person. I like that u have strong feeling for him but u express it all wrong or not at all. the only thing u have going for u is that he loves u
I fuckin hate the process consort and the emperor!!!! Like wtf stop making it worst! Purposely making misunderstandings and scheming! I hate u. I hate u more than I do Yunxuanxiao (I think that's the only real reason I like yunxuanxioa, because the others sucks more) I HATE THE EMPEROR AND HER SO BAD. I HATE YUNXUANXIAO ALSO FOR BEING SO EASILY MANIPULATED AND SWAYED! U DIDNT HAVE TO ACT LIKE THAT! FUCK U ALL! ACTUALLY I HATE. YUNXUANXIAO MORE THINKING IT OVER!!! YunXuanXiao you are unforgivable.
I wanna know about guard Song and escort Lian story it looks like they knew each other when they were young and looks like Lian hiding his identity?? as that child?? Seems like the child in the picture is an special/precious person to SongQing . Idk I'm curious. They have mutual feelings rn so y aren't a couple yet and why all the secrecy that ur that kid???!?!?!!
Silent Lover