melon's manga / #Depressing(1)

Suimenka

Complete | Harada | 2000 released

Wow. Harada is so good. Brooooo. I'm crying I wished it wasn't a love triangle. I wished he had just supported them but I can soooo see this happening and then seeing it all just fall apart, regretting it all. I can't judge either side. I can't fully wholeheartedly ridicule the friend cuz it was love, f*cked up twisted love but love. And honestly we all be insane when in love. But actually I needed this I was looking for something to read and I think this satisfied me a bit, even as messed up as it was. Nooooo!! I just read the POV from blondey and now I'm crying even harder!!!! AAAAAAAAAAaaaAaAA!!!!!!! I want them to be happy!! But that day must've really hurt him. And cutie uke must've felt guilty still having lingering feelings for blondey while with stupid prick 3rd guy!! But after all those yrs with 3rd guy, he must've became important to cutie uke after so long, even if he didn't love him. So of course when blondey showed up it wasn't gonna end well, and r u stupid why u ask that stupid question u weak a$$ punk after all this time meeting cutie uke for the first time in forever!!! Why u gotta hurt him!!!!! WHY!? WHY COULDN'T YA JUST NOT BE SO RUDE AND HURTFUL! BUT IF THAT STUPID 3RD GUY HADNT DONE WHAT HE DID THEN IT WOULDNT HAVE BEEN THIS PAINFULLL!!!! I TAKE BACK WHAT I SAID ABOUT NOT JUDGING HIM CUZ THAT WHOLE "all is fair in love in war" STUPID PHILOSOPHY SH!T I WAS NAIVELY THINKING ABOUT!! SH!T WITH IT ALL!!! IM F*CKING PISSED AND CRYING FOR CUTIEPIE UKE AND BLONDEY NOW CUZ THEY COULD'VE HAD A LOVELY BEAUTIFUL LOVE BUT THIS 3RD GUY TINY PIECE OF SH!T OF A BAST@RD FRIEND JUST HAD TO F#CK EVERYTHING UP WITH THAT STUPID SNEEKY COWARDLY SH!T HE PULLED!!! YOU DONT MESS WITH PEOPLE WHO ALREADY HAVE MUTUAL FEELINGS!! DONT TOUCH THAT!! I SYMPATHIZED WITH YOU FOR A SECOND UNTIL I READ BLONDEY POINT OF VIEW AND I JUST CANT ANYMORE! DONT MESS WITH PEOPLE WITH MUTUAL FEELINGS, ESPECIALLY YOUR OWN F#CKING D@MN FRIENDS, AT LEAST YOU SHOULDVE BEEN A MAN ABOUT IT, FACE IT DIRECTLY, CONFESSED... why did you pull that cowardly sh!t. You didn't even have the guts to confessed without those sneaky manipulating moves you made. And even after you had him...smh you still a manipulating SOB... of course youll feel empty, of course you'll lose it all. You had to have done it right... if only you had done it right.. you did have a chance but you-! you stupid cowardly piece of sh!t. Why. I know heart break is terribly hard and I saw you crying too but I just can't. I dont think there's a definite right way in love but this obviously wasn't the right way. I wanted not to be mad but I can't now. I wished for all their happiness. And I mourned their friendship and first loves. I'll like to imagine blondey and cutie uke ends up together and 3rd SOB guy confesses what he did and let cutie uke go. This was good. Reread if ur ready to cry and heart break