NugInABox's manga / #death(3)

Fuck im going to cry

This story is such an interesting one I don't even know how to express my thoughts on it. Basically it's about a boy(?) Who had committed suicide, and becuase he was the millionth person to die in that area, he gets to make a wish. He wishes to see how the people in his life are after his death, to which he find out that he truly had a shitty life and was surrounded by shitty people who did not care at all about him. The grim reaper takes pity on the boy and says if he wants he will still grant him a proper wish than just seeing what happened, but the boy declines, stating he always wanted to die, and was glad his death was not a burden to anyone. I.... understood the main character. I felt like, during the time when I was suicidal, you get to a point where you are just too tierd to continue. The feelings and pain you get with being angry and sad get too much to where it's just a pit of you feeling every emotion so much it's empty. Then having that thought pass through your head that 'nobody would care if I died' and that's what takes you over the edge. It's a morbid take on it, as this boy really didn't have anyone who would care, and you might feel a bit bittersweet about it ebcuase you killed yourself because no one cared, but you somewhat wished someone did care, but the burden of traumatizing someone with your death would be too much to bare. I think it's interesting that he didn't choose to be reincarnated either. He just wanted to move on, I bet he was tierd of always being in pain in that life, and being able to go to his next life without the memories of the pain would be considered a haply ending for him. I'd also life to say just hoe nice the grim reaper was, and how sad it felt to realize that even if it's just passing concern or pity, the grim reaper was the only being that cared and wanted him happy in the end. And thinking of that, it was more like when a person on the internet says 'it will get better, dont kill yourself!' It's a... nice thought but when you are in that mental state it feels preformative because they don't know YOU. And I believe that's another reason why the boy didn't take his offers. Overall a great one-shot thats very sad and thoughtful.