Paradise View
Damn...honestly, I need like a year to process my emotions and this story. This story made me go through SO. MUCH. and it wasn’t even my own story! Damn it made me anxious and I was in anguish and it broke my heart but also made my heart swell. Shit! I literally had a discussion with myself in which I needed to pan everything out because from the outside looking in I knew Hideo was in love and wasn’t acting out of pity. But it still hurt to see them think that they couldn’t bring each other happiness! I understand the parents thing I really do because I would HATE IT if my family did not approve of the guy I potentially saw myself getting hitched with. But Hideo should have opened up about it and communicated how he felt. That he wanted their approval and that he was devastated because he didn’t get it. He was selfish. He made Tomohisa go through a lot and honestly him thinking he wasn’t in love and doubting himself was what caused everything but it’s just crazy to me because the whole time I could see how in love he was and how passionate he was about Tomohisa. He was the one who was doubting himself. He was the one who brought the anguish about. It’s crazy how one small thing like your parents saying maybe you aren’t really in love can cause such a huge domino effect bit really....think about it. Our parents are mainly the only ones who can bring us up or tear us all the way down. And I think that’s what happened. His family tore his love down and he let it get to him as any other person would. Damn that was a long rant. This story was very good and I am so glad I read it. BUT. NOTE TO FUTURE SELF: if you are not ready for this heartbreak and anxiety, give yourself a few days because you legit have to mentally prepare for this shit. Trust me. You’ll thank me later. Damn. My heart. And he died! Damn! Shit! Ssllpllzmslsokllapxosolsll!!!!! I need a moment. If you guys will excuse me.
Ai O Kou Kemono