oh là là's manga / #Josei(10)

I rarely comment on stuff I've read but..... everything about this has been absolutely perfect; how their string of thoughts and behaviour panned out, felt relatable and accurate even, when you think about the intricacies/reality of human nature. The storytelling was immaculate; it didn't have much unnecessary pointless frill/drama (if any at all), pacing wasn't dragged around all over the place. Read the whole of it in one sitting, completely engaged as I watched it unfold :'D Spoiler/review: FL Hee Soo's method of dealing with the gradual lack of faith in men from her dating experiences, how people behaved with her new persona/mask, her detachment from people in general, the defensive wall she put up for social interactions, the flight response in uncomfortable situations, her disinterest regarding other aspects of her casual sex partners' lives, and her thoughts of realisation when she spent some time not just having sex but some level of friendly conversation. ML Chae Gyeom's shrewd but understandable calculated grand plan, thought process from his perspective. The cause and effect patterns; how she was being introspective/self-aware or finally admitted how she was dealing with everything and why she was doing it, how he was aware or guessing/predicting her reactions/behaviour in the situation, his reasons for his actions. How they revealed their cards eventually. How her sex partners reacted, the understandable irrational emotional outburst when she caught them off guard... and acceptance in the end (I suppose they *technically* could have been *more* bitter about it and lashed out immaturely after her attempts to provide closure, but that would depend on how obsessive/vengeful they were as a person). The casual sexual "bond(s)/relationship(s)" were ultimately ambiguous; it's not as though she'd been completely transparent with the extent of it (not that she was obligated to) nor dropped the veil revealing her true/raw/unfiltered character (as one would tend to do when they don't care what people thought of them - enough to maintain a certain image).. She wore a flirty/playful persona, an extension of how she learned to (deal with/manage) social interactions rather than being serious/stoic/pragmatic -how she originally was in school- which proved more effective/advantageous for social interactions, that's just how she developed/grew up as a person due to how she was treated; thus it (this mask/persona) allowed room for "fantasies"/their own interpretation of who she was or the potential of what it may become (based on that persona) - apparently it's not uncommon for people begin romantic relationships from repeated casual trysts with the same person. In the end, it was more or less superficial since they barely had any *real* heartfelt communication with her, they didn't truly know her and she didn't let them in either; just lonely people bundling up together for sessions of simulated affection/comfort (which eventually grew on them from the repetition and since they weren't emotionally detached like her) - led them to wanting more (i.e. commitment or exclusivity) as expressed with their hints at sounding her out, meaningful gestures (birthday surprise), etc. As far as I can tell, she's pretty but very introverted; the schoolmates were just being people (human nature and all). Girls' jealousy because she was a certain level of "pretty", teenage boys being teenage boys only looked at her with sexual curiosity rather than befriend her (Had there been a girl or a few girls who behaved like the ML and approached FL first, forming a genuine friendship... FL might have turned out differently). She didn't make an effort to socialise and join a group either. Eventually she no longer had expectations/trust in people based on her observation of their behaviour depending on her persona (new school). To her, it was pointless to go any further/deeper with the sex partners, nor did she bother with forging friendships probably because she concluded while growing up, "people are shallow and none of it is truly sincere anyway, so what's the point". Emotionally detached. Only person she ever let into her world (before she wore a persona) was ML Chae Gyeom when they were young because he happened to be there + reached out to help when she was in a really vulnerable situation; and because she was so socially isolated, this sort of gesture would assign some form of significance/meaning. It's quite a narrow/closed off/lonely world she lives in, if you think about it. It felt like I was actually witnessing a *rather realistic account* of human nature/emotional growth and not just something spun from complete/half-baked imagination without any sort of proper reference; well, on the off chance that they hadn't simply decided that it'd be easier + less complicated to just find *any* decent enough stranger; make compromises, combine assets to secure better housing, form a family unit (make do with what's available) like everybody else because it's seen as miserable when you don't have somebody to handle tasks/problems, split responsibilities/distribute load with, support each other as you grow old, get health examinations, fall ill.

This is intriguing :’) Couldn’t wait any longer, reading novel with Browser google translate Edit: https://www.tuhaoxs.com/book/youzaishoushichongchongtianshengshengzai/ some of the slang words are direct translations and represents something else (e.g red herring) some of the words translated as, “well” = “en” (sound fx for mm ok) or “Hou” (supposedly sound fx for roar I think), “great aunt/official holiday” = menstruation Manga chapter 113 is close to novel chapter 219 (nectar/wine) : https://www.tuhaoxs.com/book/youzaishoushichongchongtianshengshengzai/2088035.html