hoshi freak's manga / #happy ending(3)

~ reminiscent of killing stalking in many ways, but the ending was so much more satisfying! unlike KS, the ending was sweet and finilized the story. i admit that sungho and dohyun don't have a healthy relationship, and walking away when they had a chance might have been better realistically, i'm still so happy they were given a happy ending together. a happy ending is very unlikely to happen in a psychological bl like this, so i made sure to prepare myself for the worst possible outcome. this was a refreshing change for a dark manga. the feelings sungho harbored towards dohyun (vice-versa) are so complex and twisted that it's hard for me to understand completely. sungho was focused entirely to going back to the past, that he was willing to do anything to have that comfort again. but in that comfort, there was still resentment towards dohyun and a longing to feel a deeper connection to him besides sexual attraction. he harbored those feelings for 9 years, until they manifested into a toxic obsession with dohyun. donhyun, kidnapped and frustrated, couldn't remember who sungho was and what he meant to him. usually, dohyun would've developed stockholm syndrome and bam! a relationship with no real meaning. after dohyun remembered all his memories, he realized that dohyun meant a lot to him then. this led him to develop feelings for the present sungho, after they got over all those fights>:( the character development for dohyun was a 180, and it was so nice to see him change from the shitbag he was in the beginning. in the end, he resumed his daily life but now there's sungho in it. instead of being stuck in the past wanting to change what they did, they lived in the present and accepted each other for who they are. something about that is so heartwarming to me. i think it's terrible that sungho raped dohyun multiple times, and i won't try to justify that. however, i can't help but be happy that they were able to be together and try again at love in the end. was it better than KS, i'm not sure. but it's definitely one of my favorite mangas that I've read so far. a masterpiece, had a lot of angst and messed up shit that i love so much (not the rape), and the art complimented the feeling of the story.

~ my favorite psychological bl i've read so far, and one of my new faves in general. i read 50+ chapters in a day, i think that goes to show how much i enjoyed this. the small details in this story really shaped the plot and made me appreciate the characters even more. it broke my heart that kister's dream was to become a leading actor, and everything he's done was for jonathan's sake. he played his role well, without any breaks in character, in order to protect the one he likes and to put an end to his twin's killing spree. it's ironic how everything came full cirlcle (kister got the biggest role of his lifetime), and i think it's one of the first times that i don't see any plot holes within the main plot. i honestly thought robert was gonna be an unnecessary obstacle in the plot, but i'm glad the author made him a SUPPORTING character instead of a rival. the tension that built up with each additional conflict made me anxious to see what would happen next. the climax (around ch. 60) hit me hard, i would have never suspected any of the twists the author included. from the twin being the actual killer, and kister being in love with jonathan since 2 years ago, to the cliff accident, nothing ceased to amaze me. baron was painted out to be the killer in the first half of the story, and i think it was an interesting move to make. i believe that it definitely captured my attention even more. each character didn't seem trustworthy, even jonathan's friends, and that added to the uneasy feeling i had while reading this. i couldn't help but picture myself in his situation, being chased by two killers and being held hostage, which made me even more captivated by how jonathan was able to handle this madness. i have a thing for wanting the main couple of psychological BLs to somehow end up together despite knowing the toxicity of the characters and story. i, in no way, support rape or abuse whether verbal or physical, irl or in manga. however, if the character has some trauma (often the epicenter of conflict in a psy. bl) seeing another person help them get through that and having an intriguing clash in personalities is something i really like seeing. an angel that plays the role of a "savior" or someone constant in their bleak life void of affection warms my heart, especially when they change for the better. that's why, i always root for these type of couples to be together in the end but i'm aware that irl, changing someone by yourself without (professional) help will often hurt you instead. because of how the plot unraveled, it made jonathan and kister's (potential, most likely will turn into lovers) relationship the most plausible. that's why i'm beyond happy with 'criminal interview' from beginning to end, and i'd definitely reread this one! hope there's side stories so we can see their life together and how they start anew :D

~ one of my favorite BLs now!! beautiful storyline that progresses so well <3 the ending was seriously the best i have EVER seen, wrapped up v nicely and wasn't rushed at all. love their relationship and the unique plot. definitely a must-read!