matmat's manga / #mature(7)

As a secretary, is there anything more tragic than having a crush on your boss? What's more, this boss is a big Alpha doctrine. What age does he still engage in sexism and refuse male Omega! Just when Yeon Woo thought that his bitter secret love was going to end in vain, he found out that the boss who looked down on him secretly took care of everything for him. After the heat cycle he not only show resistance, but also made his body really hot... hot like very hot. IDK WHY I DO THIS TO MYSELF but I feel like this is just pretty fun to look and its hella obsessive

The masochistic, lewd and beautiful yakuza Yashiro and his silent, clumsy, impotent subordinate, Doumeki. This is the story of a man who has never known happiness and of a man who is reborn by getting to know him. Currently includes Vol 1 * Don't Stay Gold * Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai ch 1 - ch 3 * Tadayoedo Shizumazu, Saredo Naki mo Sezu Vol 2 * Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai ch 4 - ch 10.5 Vol 3 * Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai ch 11 - ch 16 * Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai ch 16.5 Its beautiful. I love it. The characters are very well written, and you could feel the pain of the seme and uke. To me, the seme has sort of this obsessive-like love he sees in the uke. I also feel the uke also has the seme in a special place in his heart. The seme also knows that his love would hurt the uke, but he just wants to stay by his side!! Also, it gets more painful after the 4 years they see each other. Their dynamic is very different, and some what stiff but for some reason the tension is there, like their chemistry is pretty amazing and really hard to capture. Although the seme seem stiff at first, its his actions for the uke that makes it beautiful and painful at the same time.

Singer-songwriter, Tetsuta, became unable to sing because of throat surgery, a step before his major debut. After turning down his friend who asked him to compose a song, he goes to the sea and meets Nagi, a young man who runs a restaurant with his father. This mysterious youth invites Tetsuta to their restaurant and listens to his troubles, which ended with him staying the night. Tetsuta hears Nagi’s singing voice and receives an electrifying impact from within his body. For the first time in his life, he wants someone else to sing the songs he composed. It's sad as fuck. He truly will never know the truth while he sacrificed all that shit to protect his sister.

Na-kyum is a young painter with an exceptional talent: creating erotic images of men. Though he has published a few collections under a pseudonym, he has decided to quit painting. Then Seungho, a young nobleman, barges into his life. A hell-raiser notorious for his insatiable lust, Seungho forces Na-kyum to become his private painter. However, the nights that await Na-kyum are beyond anything he could have imagined… Good writing And beautiful sad and angsty shit happens. It’s not for everyone.

Ryu is sleeping with his college professor, but doesn't feel loved, so he decides to kidnap his professor's son, Hayato, out of revenge. As it turns out, Hayato's relationship with his father is not very good, so he winds up living with Ryu. Weirdest thing I ever read. It's about these two guys fucking each other and fucking other people. Idk I might not be the best to judge but to do a persons dad and then the son to get revenge and finding out the dad is sexually attracted to his son is really messed up. Like WTF. I still finished it but probably would want to remove this from my memories

Zankoku na Kami ga Shihaisuru portrays the tale of two step-brothers - Jeremy and Ian, as they strive to discover their separate paths towards redemption. Jeremy, a sensitive but outgoing 17 year old, is delighted to hear the news of his neurotic and excitable mother's remarriage to a wealthy British man. However, much to his horror, his sweet-talking new step-father Greg, soon begins to exhibit a disturbing trait...he is a sadistic pedophile and loses no time in making Jeremy his target. Months of horrific, systematic abuse drives Jeremy to desperation; and he sabotages his step-father's car with the hope of eliminating him. The resulting accident, however, kills his mother along with Greg. Jeremy's shocked and guilt-stricken behaviour arouses the suspicions of Greg's free-spirited son, Ian. He unearths enough evidence to tie his step-brother to the crime; but in doing so, also discovers the details of Greg's sexual abuse of Jeremy. Caught in a moral dilemma -- between punishing the criminal and atoning for his father's sins, Ian soon finds himself haunted by lust for Jeremy. Is it lust...or love? He wonders whether he shares his father's proclivities, but finds himself helpless to resist being drawn into a passionate and painful relationship with his step-brother. It’s very disturbing, but a very well-written story. Even though the summary displays this morbid information, going in sort of blind would be a better experience. The pacing is slow but we get to see many character arcs and the changes Jermey has to go through. I have seen yaoi and BL with r*pe, but they usually romantize it and overall never get to display the full trama of this abusive relationship. There are many sex scenes but it’s not really explicit. Instead, sex is sort of drawn in this artistic visual and it sort of visualizes the trama and the moments of each characters emotions. If that truly makes sense. Each character in the story isn’t one dimensional and it is sort of beautiful in that sense. We get to see the whole story with Jeremy meeting that stupid idiot to him experiencing the trama and grief he is put through by his actions. It’s painful and beautiful. Still, it’s exahasting to read because of the length but it fully gets across a story of pain and disgust. It doesn’t romantasize rape, and instead shows the whole picture of how it feels and changes someone. The 1st half is painful but it gets better once Greg is dead. Well sorta. There is a cycle of pain and understanding with the situation. Trama never truly goes away and I liked how this manga portrayed it.

Park Taejoo is often kicked out of places he’s lived in because of his menacing appearance. Through his friend’s introduction, he comes to live with Joo Hajin, the elite of the Economics Department. But the moment he opens the door, he sees condoms and sex toys scattered everywhere. Come to find out that his roommate is a notorious sex addict! Among the misunderstandings and chaotic lifestyle, they become conscious of each other at some point… And so, will these two be able to get along living in the same house?!