matmat's manga / #antsy(1)

The masochistic, lewd and beautiful yakuza Yashiro and his silent, clumsy, impotent subordinate, Doumeki. This is the story of a man who has never known happiness and of a man who is reborn by getting to know him. Currently includes Vol 1 * Don't Stay Gold * Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai ch 1 - ch 3 * Tadayoedo Shizumazu, Saredo Naki mo Sezu Vol 2 * Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai ch 4 - ch 10.5 Vol 3 * Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai ch 11 - ch 16 * Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai ch 16.5 Its beautiful. I love it. The characters are very well written, and you could feel the pain of the seme and uke. To me, the seme has sort of this obsessive-like love he sees in the uke. I also feel the uke also has the seme in a special place in his heart. The seme also knows that his love would hurt the uke, but he just wants to stay by his side!! Also, it gets more painful after the 4 years they see each other. Their dynamic is very different, and some what stiff but for some reason the tension is there, like their chemistry is pretty amazing and really hard to capture. Although the seme seem stiff at first, its his actions for the uke that makes it beautiful and painful at the same time.