chii's manga / #CRY(139)

@90, finished? SO GOOODDD, Very solid 9/10, lower then 10 cause it was pretty damn depressing sniff. ML = Shavonne/Von Killer = Lewellyn/Lyn Doctor = Fawkes OBNOXIOUS EX = Auguste Boss of Von = Turner Prison rat = Ferral 89 = choking on fucking tears. Just wow. Just read it, just wow. 80 to 85 = we get the past about the prison again but from Vons viewpoint. How he was making friends at his job, until he met Lyn and everyone genuinely treated and talked about him like a dog, and when Von said he is a goodlooking GUY, they all ostracized him. He got beaten up and almost killer for secretly caring for Lyn, and then told he either becomes Lyns "dog trainer" and makes him listen to every command, or dies. He gets tortured for a while and then starts RESENTING Lyn and blaming him for everything. Saying he should've never pitied Lyn and its his doing. And so Von comes back and becomes the insanely cold person that Lyn rememberes. 75 to 79 = Lyn and Von try to live normal lives and make up fake names, Noah and Brooke. But then Lyn and Von get drugged and kidnapped, Lyn does manage to bite Ferrals ear but then also faints. Von got abducted by Fawkes who tels him all about his time at the prison and how he was dismissed, and the reason he lost his memory is cause Fawkes is a hypno therapist and hypnotized him! He says this time they won't just erase his 3 months at the prison, but his ENTIRE life and reprogram his brain and make him work at some noble mans house as a worker. Von then says something about not knowing what a family or love is which makes Fawkes come in closer and whisper to him, then Von strikes and butts his head against him, and keeps using his head to smashes his skull to the ground! Fawkes faints and he unties himself and grabs the gun in his desk and leaves. Turns out he was in the prison locked up, so he just has to find the room that Lyn is in. He sees Ferral but doesn't recognize him, but finds the right room and goes in. 71 to 74 = Turner shows proof that he was hired to make Von falls for him and date him, hired by THE DEMON FAWKES. He even has a whole manifesto on what Von liked written down, and then Von realizes all his exes had black hair and blue eyes. He confronts Fawkes and leaves after he admits it, and then confesses to Lyn that he LOVES him and he tried to like him less but it doesnt work. SNIFF. Then Turner survives but most of his teeth are pulled out, and he goes to Fawkes and says its his fault cause the "gold eyed lover" did it to him. Lyn even CASTRATED HIM, HAHAHA! Turner loses his engagement, his job and even gets disowned by his rich family! Then he asks around who spread these rumours and they all say Viscount Cepa, and the he told them to tell turner "Yellow eyes sends his regards", insinuating the Viscount is Lyn. GET WRECKED. Then after the bastard Fawkes finds out that the man who hurt Turner has gold eyes, he STABS Turner and leaves him for dead, and says the "dog" he left to die is still alive. Turns out Fawkes wants the prison to reopen someday and then let the royal family turn him into a count, so he sends a letter to Ferral, the man who abused Lyn, telling him the "dog still lives" 61 to 70 = von gets sleeping pills from his boss Turner to give to Lyn becauss Lyn has been waking up every night from nightmares, however he secretly puts it in Lyns drink and Lyn doesnt wake up. Then Von remembers that a high dose could be lethal so he carries Lyn on his back to a shitty doctor and lies that he is an inspector and makes him heal Lyn! Lyn wakes up and says he is glad Von didnt leave and he wouldve shackled him if he did, and Von says nothing but in his head says that HE wants to shackle Lyn and never lose him, but thinks Lyn will leave him someday. Also the doctor says that the patient Lyn was odd, and that this is not something a sleeping pill should do, so he asks Von to bring one later to inspect Von starts distancing himself from Lyn to "prepare for the end" so that if they breakup he wont be too hurt. Dumb af. At the same time he also gets heavy insomnia. Its so bad that he cant even sleep for more then 20 min. Von starts taking those sleeping pills that almost killed Lyn, after seeing Turner take them himself and surviving. They help Von fine and he finally sleeps normal again, but Lyn seems sicker and his skin is discolouring. Von keeps putting more distance between him and Lyn, and Lyn is too scared to disobey anuthing he says cause of the fear that Von will leave him again. Turner also keeps giving Von more work so he arrives home later and later. Turner even starts getting mad at Von for refusing to sleep at his place and insisting on going home each night! Then on the last day of work, Turner invited Von to drink and he says no. But Turner says if he doesnt accept, he will appear at Vons house, and Von doesnt want Lyn to meet this turd. So he accepts and they drink, and Turner says he LOVES Von?! Turns out he seemingly drugged Vons drink, and then after Von rejects him he pins him down on the table and says to stop playing hard to get and starts assaulting him. Von managed to save himself by grabbing the candle on the table and threatening him and escapes! Then he runs to the supposed writing competition place where he supposedly would be signed on, and turns out it was ALL a lie, just as Lyn had suspected before but was scared to tell Von. Turner already had a different writer he hired and lied to Von. Von returns home and sees that Lyn has abducted and beaten up the BASTARD Turner! ICONIC! Lyn went to his house snd asked where Von was, and he lied saying Von asked for sex. So Lyn slightly beats him and then says he has 10 min to tell him the truth cause he has to be home on time, and every lie will cause Lyn to feed Turner glass. ICONIC. Turner thinks he is the devil and says in his head that people say the devil has golden eyes, HAHAH. 56 + 57 = we find out the reason he starter the killing spree is to kill all those abusive guards who beat him up! We go back to current time where Lyn leaves the house cause he doesnt believe Vons words saying that he likes him, and walks around town. Then returns and Von is waiting outside for him for 4 HRS and they kiss outside, Lyn being shocked by Vons odd behaviour. 34 to 53 = we get backstory on Lyn and his scars. He got them whilst locked up in a PSYCHO prison where everyone even innocent people get abused so bad they all die. Apparently Von WORKED THERE as a guard, which is how Lyn knows him. Lyn doesnt understand most words that are being said. Von tells him to wipe the blood off of himself but Lyn thinks its poison and rips it into pieces. Then Von says he will return later but just cause others call him Dog doesnt mean he IS a dog, and says he has never seen as a dog as handsome as him, referring to Lyn. Lyn doesnt know what that word means though. Von returns with a steel baton and Lyn expects to be beaten like usual, but instead Von usss it to put the handkerchief on it and wipe Lyn himself. Lyn doesnt understand 1 word Von says but feels like its a miracle that he for ONCE isnt beaten up. Von doesnt return for a while and then does, with a bruised eye. He then says he beat HIMSELF up so he could get painkillers to give to Lyn, but all he got was a huge bag of ONIONS, as they said painkillers are to expensive for staff. Lyn finally talks a little aswell to ask "will you come back" cause Von didnt say it this time, and Von says ofcourse and returns even with a book! Lyn still doesnt understand most things he says but he doesnt want Von to leave. Von starts teaching Lyn to type and read, and gives Lyn his name, Llewellyn :') Lyn learns to say Shavonne, but he is too scared to tell Von his name in fear that he will mispronounce it, and that Von will hate him and he will lose him. And to Lyn who has been abused for years in a lonely cell, Von is his entire world. Eventually Von takes Lyn's muzzle of so he can eat properly, which gives Lyn the courage to say his name. Von then pats his head so Lyn starts repeating his name over and over SNIFF. Then one day Von comes back hurt and beat up, and acts like nothing happener. But Lyn starts saying "hurt" and is worried for him so he gets closer to Von, and VON KISSED HIM! Lyn then pulls him back and asks Von to finish "eating" him, so they kiss more. Then before Von leaves, Lyn gives his onion to him to eat as medicine, and Von never returned. Lyn starts begging people to bring Von back, and eventually Farrel the superintendent who has been experimenting on Lyn since he was a kid with drugs, says he can make that happen on 1 condition. And so Von returns but is VERY cold towards Lyn. This keeps going for WEEKS, Von just has a cold blank expression no matter what Lyn does and doesnt even speak a word. Since giving onions doesnt work, Lyn starts reading books to try and find a book Von likes so he will smile at him. Von still doesnt, so Lyn keeps reading and reads a lot about love and kisses. So he tells Von he loves him and kisses him, Von doesnt do anything like always and just lets it happen. He reads in books that kissing means both people like eachother so he thinks Von also likes him. Lyn tried to find something that makes him worthy of Von, and so Lyn says all the things he is good at. First being biting and killing and how he can do it even with just a pen. Then his hearing etc. Snd then how he can write the alphabet, which makes Von SLIGHTLY smile! And so Lyn gives Von a letter to read, and next time Von returns with all his belongings including a blanket and pillow, and sleeps there. Then we see the letter Lyn wrote, which simply said "Stay with me", and he starts living with Lyn in his cell. Von asks to go out for air and Lyn thinks he womt ever comeback so he says no, but Von tries to explain what air is and he still doesnt get it. Von wnaps and screams at him saying "DO YOU WANNA LOCK ME UP" and Lyn gets scared, so Von says he didnt mean it and will return. Later on Von lashes out at Lyn for singing a song, and says there is nothing to be happy about and starts acting "weird" as Lyn says to himself. Von will kids him one day and push away the next, kick him out the sheets one day and invite him back the other, he was breaking. Lyn then says he wants to be Von, and Von asks why. He has no family, friends or good looks, but Lyn still says he wants to be Von. Then at night Von dissapears and Lyn takes all his courage and goes outside his cell and runs around looking for Von. He gets beaten up real badly by the guards trying to catch him and then sees Von. Von says he's gone mad and that he never loved Lyn, and then walks off as Lyn gets dragged away and beaten up. Then at night Von comes and says that this is his goodbye and he wont return, and Lyn is completely broken, thinking he is the issue. And so time skips 7 years. 27 = THEY BABANG, tho we only see the kissing sigh. Also Fawkes is the one who turned Auguste into a stalking creep on purpose, this doctor is a psychom 24 + 25 = After days if feeling lonely and not even being attracted to ANY men at the gay bars, Von finally figures out that the love letters are from Lyn! He runs to his apartment and confesses to Lyn saying HE LIKES HIMMMM AAHH! But Lyn asks if Von needs money and thinks its just for that, since the letters paid him. But Von says NO and says how he NEEDS Lyn and how he is the only one who loves him like this and cares for him and asks him out. Lyn with a SUPER CUTE SMILE say yes, UGAHABAINA YESSSS MY BABIESSS!!!!! Von sees a new murder ij the news and tells Lyn to stop, or else he will break up with Lyn, since guilt tripping didnt work. Saying he doesnt want his lover to go to prisoj or be executed. Lyn then says he loves Von TOO MUCH but the murders end up stopping. 19 + 21 + 22 = Von invited Lyn over for dinner! As an apology and thank you for saving him. Lyn looks INSANELY HOT and then they eat. Lyn criticized some of the food like always cause he is a brat LMAO, and then asks Von if theres anything he wants to say. Von apologizes sincerely and looks embaressed. But then he says Lyn is innocent, and Lyn then says he never said he is innocent. Then he says "you saw", referring to the dead body Von saw chapters ago, and asks if Von still has "the candle", the one he stole from Lyns house at that time. He admits he is a serial killrr, thoigh a handsome and cute one at that, who likes Von. Von asks if he will kill him if he rejects him and Lyn says he never kills for such a childish reason, and so Von rejects him. They starts seeing eachother less and talking less, and Lyn stops peeling onions at his door. Von for some reason feels empty but has no idea what to call his emotion 16 to 18 = We get the perspective of Lyn on that day. He just wanted to check Von's mailbox to see if he received his writing requests, but saw someone installed a bell inside the box. He then leaves and checks who it is and its Von, and then sees Von trying to open Lyns box. Lyn takes this as "He is interested in me and wants to know more about me and curiosity is the prelude to love", whilst in reality Von wanted to see if Lyn is his stalker! Lyn starts to think of romantic gifts to give Von, and ends with a flowers bouquet made out of paper money LMAO. But Von rejects it and closes the door. Von barely talks to Lyn, and is seemingly avoiding him, even though Lyn keeps knocking. Then Lyn notices that Von hasn't even left his apartment for 4 whole DAYS, so he knocks again and is sad and worried. But the door is for some reason open so Lyn enters. We go back in time and it turns out that Von was avoiding Lyn cause he thought Lyn was trying to suck up to him to KILL him later. And he also keeps getting letters from his stalker and is still unsure if its Lyn or not. Von gets a visit by a worker in the apartment saying someone complained about Lyns home being so dirty that rats and cockroaches are appearing. Von is confused AF as he just cleaned it yesterday and its spotless, so he let's the asshole in to check. But somehow his home is dirty AF and covered in dust. He then realizes someone got into his home and remember a note the stalker left, asking if he needs groceries. Von goes home and prepares a knife for self defense, but his DUMBASS put it on his desk away from his bed, so when he hears someone enter he gets scared. He runs under his desk and then grabs his chair and strikes the stalker, who turns out to be his PSYCHO EX Auguste, who almost stabs him. But Lyn who saw the door was unlocked opened it and punches him and knocks him out. He says he will deal with it since Von doesn't know what to do, but Von says to not kill or sell him, and Lyn says he's rich and doesn't nerd such chump change LMAO. Also Lyn called the punch that was hard enough to knock a man out a "love tap" i- 14 + 15 = Von gets a job offer to finally stop being a ghost writer and be a writer himself so he meets up but its a SHIT deal. He still is unsure cause he needs money but then Lyn sees him and asks to eat together, then SHITS all over the garbage man who wants to give Von a deal and the man runs out after 5 min LMAO. Von says he needs money and says Lyn is selfish for ruining it and Lyn admits he is selfish LMAO. Then later Von gets a letter in the mail offering him 30 coins per letter (SUPER high) and all he has to do is edit love letters. Its clearly from Lyn tho as the name is made out of the name Lewellyn, "Newell Y.L.", but Von doesn't know this yet and accepts it. He reads the love letters and is shocked by how BAD they are lmao. In fact a lot of them include INSULT LMAO, saying the supposed person they love "lack intelligence". At the same time that Von keeps getting love letters to edit, he also receives letters from his stalker who also broke the numberplate on his door recently. So Von thinks its the same people especially as the love letters also have a fake address that lead to a construction sight So he hides in the hallway and waits for someone to put something in his letter box, and seed Lyn. But when he checks his letter box is empty so he tries to open Lyns box as he suspects he put it in his own, and that me might know Von was waiting. Lyn on the other hand says Von has been rude to him 23 times now so he should start paying him back for each time he is rude as its unfair HAHA. 10 to 13 = Von sleeps on the street and wakes up seeing Lyn standing above him with an umbrella protecting him from the snow. Then he asks why Von is here and he says he got kicked out, Lyn then sends Von to a hidden corner spot in the street that is warmer then the others and tells him to stay here till Lyn returns. Von wants to say no but Lyn gives him money LMAO. The next day Lyn returns with HIS KEY TO HIS APARTMENT BACK! He then asks Lyn if he had done "bad things" before and Lyn says he thinks so. Turns out Lyn paid 30 MONTHS of the rent on his apartment to get it back, and says from now on it both of theirs. He won't live with Von, and Von will have the spare key so Lyn can only get in when invited FOR NOW. But once Von gives the key back to Lyn he will come whenever he wants. It's up to Von to give it back whenever he wants. Then the next day Lyn is back to peeling onions at Vons door but this time he doesn't sit on the stairs but against the wall, Von is shocker but Lyn says its closer to him. Then he keeps saying stuff like "even BAD people like onions" etc LMAO, cleaely a jab at Von's question from yesterday. So Von joins him and says "even bad people need help sometimes" UGH FUCK ALREADY At nighttime someone starts BANGING on Lyn's door which wakes Von up as well so he goes and peeks. Some guy is telling Lyn to have sex with him and Lyn laughs loud af and says no, then the man says "everyone knows you are a prostitute" and Lyn DIED FROM LAUGHTER LMAO. Then he says it doesn't matter if people wanna believe that then so be it, but he still won't bang this strange creep, as he has 1 client only. The man asks who and Lyn looks and winks at VON! And says his client can't even afford rent LMAO. Von then comes out and asks if he should call the cops and Lyn throws out the scientific name for ONION and acts like its a cop name HAHA! Then Von asks if he truly isn't a sex worker and Lyn says no, and then Von asks why he winked at him and Lyn asks what HE thinks its for. Lyn says an eye spasm as he wants to deny a murderer wants to bang him lmao. More and more people thought Lyn was a sex worker cause he was peeling onions? Weirdos. So he puts a sign up saying 1 night is 5000 coins, keep in mind 8 coins is already expensive LMAO. Then he tells Von he accepts free "tastings" and Von officially knows that Lyn wants to BANGGG. 7 to 9 = Von finds out the one who has been leaving him notes is Lyn as one note mentions ONIONS. Then he realizes the door plate on his door that is constantly moving and not staying straight, is in the wrong place and too high up. So he grabs in and sees some creepy drilled a hole there to look into the house. He thinks its Lyn but Lyn denies it and laughs at the accusation and says its "lame" The next day Von gets a doormaker to come measure and replace it, but the janitor of the building gets mad and kicks him out the building. Fawkes is also out of town so Von goes to a bar for now. He then returns to his house and the new door is put in, and he goes ask Lyn for 1 glass of lemon juice before he packs his bags and leaves do he won't starve as fast. The next day he officially is kicked out (EVEN THOUGH HE PAID FOR THE DOOR!) 5 + 6 = Von talks to Fawkes and tells him his neighbour is dangerous, and Fawkes says everyone in this place is dangerous and that the only thing that matters is whether they show their bad side to YOU, as everyone has one. If they don't who cares. Von goes home and Lyn invites him to eat again and seems intimidating so Von accepts but only if its in a restaurant. so they go and people are rude and loud and starts harassing Von when he asks them to quiet down and try to punch him so Lyn punches the guy in HIS face and throws tissues on him HAHAHA GOD YES PERIOD KING!

@side 46 10/10!!! SO GOOD! BAWLED MY EYES OUT SO MUCH! SUCH A BEAUTIFUL STORY! Its cute, funny, romantic, sad, beautiful AND interesting and unique. What more does one want?! Just amazing

@80 This went from a kinda cute but sad story, to pure sadness and heartbreak. Its a bit TOO realistic and hits home at times, I've only been crying in recent chapters. Its well written and the art is great, props to the artist, but it definitely is NOT a fun and cute read. Don't read it if you dont wanna end up depressed and heartbroken. As for right now, the uke Menghao is pretty frustrating at times. Like why he would leave Weiyu, just to then go and be with several guys in college, even though he only had 1-2 months left in HS and couldve had that with Weiyu. However, internalized homophobia is real, and seeing how Weiyu mentioned its been 3 ywars, it sounds like it mightve taken a while for Menghao to start dating in college, and even then he couldnt sleep with them. And at the same time Weiyu was an asshole as the start of the story, so both have arcs where they suck. Right now I just feel god awful for both, tho a bit more for Weiyu but also not cause of what he did to Menghao when he left the country. 17 = Blue hair boi Weiyu's perspective on thing. Pretty sad. 19 = Sad 20 + 21 = Meng Hao has nightmare + comes back to school after sick leave and is an icon spitting bars at the fake friends of Weiyu but then also fight together meng hao x Weiyu 22 + 23 = THEY HAVE AN EMOTIONAL TALK, COMMUNICATE!!! AND MAKE UP OMG BEAUTIFULLL 33 + 34 = Weiyu is an asshole AGAIN, Menghao scores low on his exam and Weiyu and him make up again and its emotional, crying. 35 = PRECIOUS SKIPPING SCHOOL DAY! EMOTIONAL, FUN, CUTE, JUST GREAT 35 to 38 = enjoying themselves! 40 to 42 = travelling together all around China for fun + for meng hao to take art entrance exams + some random bitch ruins his exam sad 43 to 45 = they get DRUNKKK and talk about love and styff! Menghao gets embaressed and starts avoiding Weiyu, and slowly but surely LOVEEEE!!! 46 to 48 = TOGETHER UGH MY BBBYSSS!!! 49 to 54 = depressing homophobia wooh, a poor junior called Qin getting exposed for having a crush on a senior Hanxin cause someone took his secret note and put it on the school speakers. He is getting bullied heavily, and even Hanxin harasses him. Weiyu warns Menghao to ignore this and not draw attention to himself. Menghao has enough and asks wtf is so wrong about Qin liking him, especially when he didnt even want the letter to ever be read out and never even bothered the guy. And Hanxin snaps saying he shouldnt have made people know he has a crush on him. Then the 2 otehr homophobic seniors make more fun of Hanxin, calling him a sissy and saying if he really is gay they wont be his friends. Hanxin then screams and akss why they dont suspect the others of being gay, and mentions Menghao'd name aswell, who then snaps and screams "ITS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!". Weiyu then takes him away and tries to make people not suspect him, but it seens like Hanxin suspects he is gay now. Now scum rat Hanxin spread rumours through the class about Menghao and Weiyu being a couple cause they sneak into class together often, and a girl who has a crush on Weiyu is almost in tears saying Weiyu cant love men? Lmao bye you biphobic bitcH. Eventually Weiyu bites the next of one of the 2 homophobes who also bullied Hanxu and everyone starts calling HIM gay. Then saying being gay is gross. The attention got away from Menghao and Weiyu, but they still essentially "lost" as everyone eis still happily homophobic and a week later everyone acts like friends again. 55 + 56 = Qin still gets bullied and even got his bag stolen and dumped out, and Menghaos father is homophobic, wooh. 57 + 58 = Weiyu has to start living off campus from his dad sadly, so they have a cute day together. They make out but then Menghao sees his fathers face and is scared and stops, poor baby.... They act as friends at school now and see each other less as Weiyu lives off campus, but still text a lot and its cute. Then Qin the gay junior is taken by the ambulance for his Asthma. Something probably happened again ffs. 59 to 63 = Now that Qin almost DIED and is transferring cause of the severe bullying, the psychopaths start bullying Menghao whilst Weiyu isn't around. Hanxu still just keeps watching and lets the homophobes psychos keep going. They then start talking shit about Weiyu and tell Menghao he would be nothing with him, so Menghao snaps and FINALLY BEATS THE MAIN BULLY UP! Hanxu stands up against his friends for once and helps Menghao. Then the teacher stops them and says he will let it go this once, but they have to write apology letters. Then he let's Menghao stay and somehow blames Qin for getting bullied to the point of being hospitalized, saying he should've focused on his studies instead of "admitting" he is gay?! Psychopath. He ignores Weiyus phone calls and then Weiyu sees him later at school and gets mad saying he will beat the guys up. Menghao stops him and says not to do anything and to also not be nice to him at school anymore, and he starts avoiding Weiyu. Weiyu then surprised him in class when they just watch a movie in class, and they sneak out together to go on a small date instead. But then Menghao ends it... By asking to breakup... And he just leaves and starts ignoring 40+ of Weiyus calls and being a POS. They talk after Weiyu forces him to, and Menghao says humans can't be greedy and its impossible for them to someday be able to be together without these people shitting on them even for holding hands. And so they both cry, mainly Weiyu, and so it ends.. Lots of internalized homophobia. 64 + 65 = officially broken up, they stop being friends as well. Menghao joins more group activities to blend in, whilst Weiyu becomes less social. They never talk either. Menghao then walks on the street and everyone reminds him of their memories together. Then his friend calls and says they will have dinner at Weiyus families restaurant. Weiyu is there helping out but ignores Menghao. Menghao falls asleep cause he drank too much and Weiyu ignores him, but Tanxu tells him to take Menghao since its his and his scum friends faults for them falling apart partially. So he does, and Menghao whilst drunk asks him to not forget him, and Weiyu leaves the room and Menghao cries. And so they graduate highschool and it ends. 66 to 69 = Unknown how much time it has been since highschool, but Menghao gets found on the street passed out by a bar owner. Menghao now has purple hair, longer ugly hair, and walks around without pants in a strangees house lol. Then he returns the next day and tries to initiate sex as "payment" but the bae owner already said nothing happened and its NO. So menghao seems defeated and almost leaves but then stays to help clean up the mess Woofy the dog made. We also see a flashback of the Bar owner hearing Menghao say Weiyus name whilst passed out... The bar owner then says he can pay rent now, and Menghao thinks its sex and looks sad, but the bar owner just tries to draw him whilst he lays down fully clothed LMAO! and it looks AWFUL. Then Menghao critoques it, so the Bar owner makes Menghao draw him instead, and then says the rent is paid without even looking at the painting And lets him move in! The bar owners name is Jingyi Fu and he invited Menghao to his bar to watch music performances. And some HOT green haired guy who dresses weird (who Menghao calls a cheistmas tree LMAOOO) is called Liang Menghao then asks Jingyi to watch a movie with him so they do and he is shocked to see Menghao crying. Menghao then talks about his ex boyfriends from college, and how he even started crossdressing cause his boyfriend did. But then we see that he couldnt even go further with his boyfriend either, cause of fear. 70 = We see more of Menghaos past, and how he finally realizes his fear wasnt his fathers rejection, but his own rejection of himself... Then he remembers the times when Weiyu would tell him Menghao will move further someday without him, peobably knowing this would happen. Yet he didnt give up on Menghao and kept trying, but Menghao broke him. So sad. Saddest chapter yet to me as it hits deep. 72 = depressing AF backstory of Jingyi. 73 = More backstory, Menghao and the old art school classmates meet up, and Weiyu said he would come. Menghao is excited but scared, since he just broke up with his ceossdressing boyfriend and misses Weiyu. He hears the others talk about Weiyu and how he changed a lot and his family got another restaurant + he hot a scholarship. But Weiyu cancels last minute and doesnt come. 74 to 80+ = Cunzhi, Menghaos friend, comes to Jingyis house whilst Menghao is out with Woofy to pass luggage over for Menghao. He then assumes they are dating and starts talking about the guy (Seemingly Weiyu) ans how he already left, and how he hopes Jinygyi isnt a bad guy cause Menghao got hit by his dad?! Menghao then runs away after seeing Cunzhi and seems bad, saying he told him to not come find him. They now are trying to find Menghao and cant, and then Cunzhi talks about how he doeent mind Menghao being with men aslong as it isnt Weiyu. He knew they were dating and broke up, but he didnt realize until 6 months ago when their class had a reunion at Weiyus restaurant where he noticed the breakup clearly went bad, and Menghao came in super drunk and Weiyu acted like he didnt exist. Menghao then finds out that Weiyu is leaving and euns to his place to say goodbye, as Weiyu opens the door on the phone with a girl. Then acts cold AF to Menghao, as they havent met in 3 YEARS and Menghao is just asking basic stuff like how is your dad, but then asks if he will be back and Weiyu says he doesnt know. Weiyu tells him to leave if he has nothing more to say, and Menghao apologizes and says he cant forget him and stuff and so they both are on the verge of crying and Weiyu pulls him in and they starts making out and taking eachothers clothes off. Menghaos uncle comes in and says stuff that triggers Weiyu so they have sex in the bathroom whilst he is there and Menghao turns the shower on to distract the uncle, and as he leaves Weiyu gets rougher. They then spend several days in Weiyus place having sex. And Weiyu not talking about his travel that is tomorrow as if it doesnt matter. They then have sex in Weiyus mothers fav room, and he says its fine to make the house dirt cause a cleaner will come clean later and nothing will be left. Then the next day, Weiyu left after only leaving a note, barely even packing anything, as if to say that he had nothing special left there anyway. And later Menghao gets hospitalized by his father after he found out he is gay. Just heartbreaking. Even more heartbreaking then before.

@4.5 Seems to be a Thai BL and its SO CUTE! The names do throw me off at times, like "in", especially when I'm reading it in English, but that doesn't change how cute and adorable the story is <3 can't wait for more! Tho I was shocked in chapter 1 lmao, amazing start! ALSO THE ART IS GORGEOUS!

@12 COMPLETED AHHHH 10/10! A REAL UNIQUE WAY TO TELL A STORY AND SUPER CYTE OMEGAVERSE I LOVE ITTT! REALLLLYYY GOOD AND CUTEEE!! YAAYYY! About 2 thug fighters from different high schools falling in love, alpha x omega, BUT this time we get the perspective of them ALREADY having their daughter and telling her the story of they met! CUTE

@5 COMPLETED?? BRO WTF! WHY IS IT SO SHORT WTFF. NOOOO, I NEED THEM TO GET RID OF THE MISSINFORMATION AND BE TOGETHER STOP!!! Heart shattered. Sad.

@7 Previous! It is sad at times but beautifully written! I also hope he ends up having Superfecundation twins! or 2 separate kids I guess but I'd love the superfecundation more lmao.

@40 FINISHED Solid 8/10! I LOVE IT! Viktor deserved better tbh, but the ending was pretty satisfying especially with Evans madness HHAHAHAA! I can't give it a 5 start though caused of Viktor suffering so much throughout this. But the satisfaction still won me over also the smut is insanely good. Mihael = the devil you better NOT mess with, cause he will destroy you. Icon. Victor = BABEEEE DADDYYY AAHH Evan = PSYCHOPATH but hot in bed 17+18= Victor deserves better goddann, MY PRECIOUS BBY! But also genius Mihael 19+20 = bruH. Mihael seems happy and slays, but Victor please save thyself 24 to 26 = MIHAEL SLAYING THE WORLD, LITERALLY, AS AN CTING KING! But of course the "angel" Gabriel comes and ruins it all wow. May all of heaven BURN DOWN 27+28 = MY POOR MIHAEL, GO GET YOUR LOVE!!! VICTOR MY PRECIOUS UGHHH. But also victor why would you give your wishes to fuccing Evan??? Bro. 29+30 = 3P 31 to 34 = HEART SHATTEERREEDDDD 37 to 40 = SUFFER EVAN. Y.E.S.

@5.5 FINISHED 100000/10, BEAUTIFULL, AMAZING, DESERVES AN AWARD! A BL based on the REAL LIFE of an LGBT activist in Japan! and how one went from internalized homophobia, self hatred and depression to finding love and standing up for who they are. There were many sad things throughout, but its just beautiful and shows the reality of how hard it can be to find love. Especially when you are LGBT, in a country where your human eights to be in love with someone is seen as illegal. Just wow. So glad I read this.

@96 (end?!?!? I reject) 10/10!!!!! It was SUPER sad in s3 but the author SLAYED S3 has started and we got a 4 YEAR time skip and I'm sad. :( HEART DESTROYED 67 = but but 63+64 = choking back tears from frustration bish. its painfully realistic. 74 = ISTFG AUTHOR, STAAPHHH!! GIMME MY HAPPY ENDING ALREADY?!?! STAOH SHATTEEING MA HEART ｡･ﾟ･(ﾉД`)･ﾟ･｡ 76+77 = KYYYAAAAAAACYAIHAUBAIBAHVA YESSSSSSSS ＼(*T▽T*)／ 78 to 80 = KYAAKKYAAAA AAAHHHH WAAHHH OMGAGAWDDD!!! SO CUTE UGH AHJUICCYYYA AHHH bless my eyeballs. AHHH CONFESSING, HOTNESS, EVERUTHING WOOHHABUSI 81 = MA HEARTTTTTT!!!! YOU DESERVE EACHOTHER, PLEASE LIVE TOGETHERDD 82 = trash manager rat and cyte sulking ahjussi 83 = AAWWWWEW UGHHH KYAAAAA UWU?!?!?!!!!!!!! happy 85+86 = YESSS OFFICR SEXX PLIS!!! Also manager Kim is precious 87 = OMGG!!! HIS BROTHER EUIHYUN ENDING WITH CHAEHYUN?! U SEE U AUTHOR! PLEASEEEEE GIVE US THAT COUPLE AAHH, CHAEHYUN GET THAT LOVE. AND THE DREAM FROM CH 50 COMING TRUE OMGGGGGG, 10/10 88 = BAWLING. SCREAMING. CRYING. DYING. LOVING. LAUGHING. LIVINGGGG!!! 1000/10 CHAPTER OMG MY SOUL UGJUAAHUAHA UGH!! PLEASEEEE AUTHOR, GIVE US MORE CHAPTERS ABOUT HYUNIE X EUIHYUN, SO THIS BL CAN NEVER END!!!!! 95 = SMILING AHJUSSIII IS GORGEOUSSSS!!! DONT ENDDDDD, I NEED MORE SMILESSS 96 (side story end) = I reject the idea of thsi being the end, but the way i BAWLED my eyes out! Bwautifyl like always T_T