shoujo_sakura's manga / #smut(237)

This was wild. Uke is a playboy and his father fears that of his son getting an illigimate son so he assigned his assistant to take care of his son and teach him how to not be a playboy. Unbeknownst to him that the assistant's way was to make uke a gay sex lover.

Kinda cute. And is it titles says it's about that haha

There is an epilogue coming. I actually loved this story. It's unique and just flesh out well. The characters are complex and each of them I can understand and sometimes relate to. And it makes me feel like their struggle is natural. And that their actions aren't just one victim and the other a bad guy. Because each of them, just had struggles that explains their actions. I love the flow of the story, it wasn't slow and too fast. I also like the way the author arranged the events of the story. This was angsty but it stayed with theme that even if life is miserable and one wishes to end it, each wishes to have a happy life and in fact, despite the darkness in life ppl would still pursue / try to get a better life. I absolutely loved the uke, and the seme had made many mistakes but I don't see him detestable. Their compatibility is also great. It's the negative x negative couple haha Summary spoiler: Uke is an aspiring actor who majors in theater in college. Seme is a writer whose life is miserable and suffers from a love/life he dreams to have, specifically to have that one person in his life, his name is Haram. Seme one day witness a blonde guy getting into a car accident and gets a panic attack, which uke reaches out to him. Seme had this obsession of looking for a blonde guy who has been there in his entire life until he disappeared or passed away one day, causing him insanity. Upon receiving help from uke who was also blonde and had high resemblance to the person he longed. He decided to hire uke as this actor to act his script. Because ehe planned to create a new world with uke acting as Haram. The two got into this acting slash ambiguous romantic relationship, but eventually uke found himself in love with seme. Their relationship was heading into a good path until one day , uke realized and learns that seme was looking at him with another person in mind. And this destroys their current relationship. And multiple times, seme had fallen into depression but uke was there to help him. When uke confronted seme of this and wished for him to ask forgiveness as well explain, what he got was silence and so their relationship grew estranged. Random backstory, uke suffered sickness when he was young and showed no sign of getting healthy and it ended with his parents getting into a cult which led to uke's miserable life. But in highschool he once watched a movie that made him wish to be an actor. And that movie was based on seme's novel... Soon, seme realizes that he no longer wished for Haram but instead uke's presence. So he decided to chase at him but uke refuses to concede. Du eto desperation, he finally opens up that Haram was actually not real but was instead an imagination he had created to help himself. This triggered uke on his cult trauma and he decided to further stay away. Random backstory, seme's parents divorced when he was young causing him anxiety. This anxiety led him to create Haram. This hallucinations made his mother look at him as if he was crazy and further solidified his anxiety, this is the reason why he refused to tell uke about Haram.... The two decided to move on and time passes by. Uke still does not pass in any audition so he decided to give act one last time on a college theater performance. Seme still wishes to reconcile with him but uke is afraid that they will end up hurting each other. When he was son stage, his stage fright took place but seme's presence in the audience gave him strength. At the end, he received a casting audition. He meets up with seme to thank him, and seme gives his final farewell when uke reaches up to him and took courage to ask him if they could go back together but this time to be happy. Then that's it.

Very weird story but interesting to read

This was good old man yaoi... Also many buff old man that's something rare haha Surprisingly there's was a plot reveal at the end that was shocking but unexpectedly, was the part when the man transports early to the world so he had to become a monster to meet MC. Also the author really playing with he multiple times I thought the ending would be sad haha