Which I don’t want to be reminded of whenever I read fiction. My heart is still shattering and I’m experiencing anxiety for my class tomorrow and that is how all it ends. —- It makes me feel mixed emotions like anger, despair, and desperation.
I am angry for the fact how Collin reacted when he knew about Gabriel suffering from split personality. He act on a whim without thinking what it was like to have a mental disorder which is in fact out of the person’s control. He is one of the characters that I didn’t like to see ending up on continuing on being what he is. He is a character that I wanted to see how he grow from learning about his mistakes. Yet that doesn’t happen here and I’m left with my imagination on what would happen after he decided to be with this new Gabriel which is actually not.
I feel both of despair and desperation for Gabriel. I feel empathy for him because I know how terrifying it was to live normally when you are struggling with something the world doesn’t experience occasionally which makes it hard for them to see us a valid individual despite what we are suffering from. He has obsessive traits but that could be controlled and he could change if only he was given a chance. He has gone through a lot and yet he was the one who meets an unfair end.
I want to politely demand for side stories. I want to know if Gabriel is still there and if ever that fucking book can be written in Death Note. I’ll pass my word to Ryuzaki so please just tell me that Gabriel... I am really wishing he is still there.
One Step From The End