あ's manga / #Age gap(7)

Robo-kun and his older love. Some parts are really smutty ^^

TagsToAdd: Bitting ; Bite kink ; Marking kink ; Unfulfilled/Unrequited Love ; It's an unusual manga, for some reason I didn't enjoy it as much as I'd expect from something that explores interesting topics in interesting ways. Maybe this is because it leaves more to reflection rather than outright telling you what the message is, and I lack the experience and/or perspective to fully "get" it Plot: A high school tudent got progressively more interested in a stranger he sees daily on the bus; this stranger is an adult older man (around mid thirties maybe?), who notices how he's watched "lasciviously" and, one night while drunk, ends up somewhat forcibly kissing the student. The older guy tries to take this back and apologise later, and from this point on is consistently against doing anything more with the student; unfortunately for him said student is quite persistent (despite not always having a clear idea of what he even wants from this man). From the adult man's side of this, it's showed but not explicitly detailed that he has complex feelings about youth and naiveté, something he used to have and doesn't anymore, and seems to be rather unfulfilled in his own, adult romantic life (from the small snippets we do get to see, it seems his partner(s) are more of a fuck-buddy situation and don't care for him that much. My understanding here might be off, but it seems said partner might be a married man seeing him on the side (for sex) semi-regularly). He tries to do the right, mature thing as an 'adult' by rejecting the younger guy and sending him off to live fully among his peers, but it's clear he is affected by having this high schooler so interested and focused on him (again, probably because he's not secure in his own adult life, and possibly doesn't have anyone else looking so intently at him, wanting to see and know him; he himself says he's not as mature as Sunao things he is) From Sunao's side of things, it's a coming of age / realising his sexuality story [potentially, it could be read in many different ways but it's the meaning I assigned to it]. He can't forget his (very likely) first love, his fixation on the 'perverted' older man persists no matter how much he tries to forget him, and he doesn't feel anything similar with the girls he dates. He initially struggles with understanding his own feelings and knowing what he wants, then with being painfully aware he's far far too young and immature for this grown-ass man to reciprocate his feelings or even accept his advances. Despite trying to fight this, he knows it's lost cause, and the more he tries to get a different outcome the more he acts impulsivity and erratically (which just further shows he doesn't have the maturity for this relationship). He can't forget or convince the man to give him a chance (despite achieving SOME things by repeatedly pushing him), but at least this experience does make him understand that he's gay (or at least this-guy-sexual; realistally unlikely but it's a possible reading if you see this as a story about obsession; in my opinion his feelings and journey are more first-love-core than unhealthy--unusual-obcession) The extra chapter (where they meet again as adults and do have sex) can feel like it undercuts the rest of the story, depending on the meaning or message you assign to the whole; I personally think it makes the feelingadult man's side of things (gives him deeper feelings maybe?)