Blue_psycho312's manga / #emotional(1)

Fuck this was so hard to read. I couldn't go on for 10 minutes without cRyInG my eyes out. It started off with such a hard hitting start. To find your lover lying to you about being on a business trip just so they can flirt and have sex with his side hoes, while you suffered on your own. Illness or not. Then he had the audacity to abuse and rape Zhishu just because HE fucked up and is insecure. How do you think Zhishu felt... this is an abusive relationship no matter how you see it. Yes you loved eachother, but it's not worth it if you're going to get hurt. And that's what domestic abuse victims need to know. Now Zhishu is even scared to be happy because he thinks he'll ruin Ai Ziyu's life like he *did* with Jiang Wenxu.... fuck I've reread it again and it still doesn't disappoint. I'm still broken. Jiang Wenxu singlehandedly ruined multiple people's lives with his selfishness and arrogance. He developed a gall when he received the company that He ZhiShu's father had, now he thinks he can do anything he wants cus he has money now... He ruined the life of a guy freshly out of uni. He didn't even know any better, he just knew he loved Jiang Wenxu. And he was tossed aside, after he gave away his everything to be with Wenxu. It didn't seem like he loved Zhishu only until the very end, because he felt guilty that it ended that way. He was more preoccupied that Zhishu was seeing someone behind his back, while HES the one sleeping around with anyone he sees. To the point that he's basically infamous for it... Really goes to show that cheaters are scared of being cheated on- I guess it's a pride thing? Like "I can leave you whenever. But who are you to leave me?". And it's like that saying that men sometimes say... That men can cheat all they want and still love their lover, because it's simply for physical pleasure, but their heart is still there. Whereas women cheat because they no longer love their lover anymore.. But that's how men justify cheating. It's so sad to see that Zhishu only got his final half a year to be appreciated by someone, yet he felt he was undeserving of it. I loved Ai Ziyu for that... he was constantly trying to reassure Zhishu that he was the only one for him. He didn't want anything in return; just that Zhishu knows how much he loves him. And that's why it's so much more heartbreaking... I love this manhua. It's so cold and lifeless. Even the little bits of warmth are so bittersweet.