ni-ka-CHUUUUUUUUUU's manga / #adorable uke(261)

3.25 would read again.

WAHHH YES THIS IS SO INTERESTING.

At first glance of the first chapter, this manga easily could have went the typical two/three chapter route about an incestuous unrequited love that would lead to some small misunderstanding (rape possibly included), followed by a rushed and unconvincingly conclusion that the feelings are mutual, and the older brother's woman phobia would be completely glossed over. However, as it progresses, this story surprisingly gets pretty dark, sad, and complicated with a lot of character development. Their feelings seem geninuely real and all you want is for them (particularly the older brother) to be happy. On a side note the older brother is so fragile and damaged and adorable how the fuck could you not instantly fall for him and want to protect him from literally everything???

Awe so cute.

I think I'm in love! Gahhhhh my fucking heart I can't take this onesideness!!!! It hurts so much but feels so good (ugggh I'm such an emotional masochist). My two favorite yaoi tropes: the adorable tsundere uke who is actually very innocent and shy and falls in love first and the bully asshole seme who will eventually realize what a fucker he is and that the uke is perfect. This manga really knows how to tug the heart strings.

Uuuuugh the relationship I have with this manga. Why do I always keep coming back and ALWAYS without fail end up crying?!

UGHHHHHH THE MANGA. I have no words for how much I loved it. I think why I loved it so much is because the uke deals with insecurity and always doubts and even often loathes himself; he has a difficult time socializing and has to force himself to do things even though he doesn't believe he can. I noticed some comments about how the uke seems to cry too much but honestly I really relate to him. Being someone who personally deals social anxiety and low self-esteem issues so this manga really hit close to home for me; he lives in constant fear that he'll disappoint people and ultimately fail. He believes everyone hates him and the fact that he was in denial that the seme could even love him for majority of the manga is utterly heart-shattering.

Seductive yet reserved and insecure older uke + stoic possessive seme = heaven.