ni-ka-CHUUUUUUUUUU's manga / #Bittersweet(20)

Ugggghhhh its heartbreaking AND hot. What more can I ask for? (chp 6 is the only happy ending because its implied the couple actually ends up together) REREAD: AHHHHH GOD FUCKING DAMN SHIT THE FEELS.

Mixed feelings about this.

Uuuuugh the relationship I have with this manga. Why do I always keep coming back and ALWAYS without fail end up crying?!

Really like this manga without the last chapter, gives it a sense of ambiguity rather than a cliche ending.

First story: adorable uke and super s seme = yay? Second story: uke with unrequited feelings for cold seme= MY FAVORITE Third: main story that I'm currently not interested in but I'll get to it eventually.

3.75 Engaging and tragic love story. It had the perfect amount of drama. However, while the story's concept was good, the manga could definitely had been more polished and refined because the manga offen seemed kinda confusing. This also didn't make me feel as empathetic as I thought I was going to be. But maybe the art also took part in my issue with this because I wasn't the biggest fan of the art. Maybe I'll reread it.

3.75:

Tragic and bittersweet.

Really like the first couple but not as much as the second one (gahhhhh) Reread: OH GOD I FUCKING CANT. I CANT BELEIVE I ACTUALLY DISMISSED THIS FOR SO LONG. IT IS ABSOLUTE PERFECTION. NO WORDS OTHER THAN THAT. I DONT THINK IVE EVER CRIED THIS MUCH READING A MANGA IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. A PURE MASTERPIECE. MY EYES ARE FUCKING SWOLLEN!!!! YONEDA KOUS UKES = REREAD: It's not nearly as emotional as the last time I read this (maybe I was PMSing that day). And because of that I didn't love this as much as the first read. While I listed it as my second favorite manga, I realize it's not really. It's not a top favorite but it still is a favorite. 20230829- lol brb sobbing

4.5 Holy fuck that was an emotional roller-coaster. It was angsty and messy and painfully realistic. This is first yaoi I've read where love seems to be portrayed how it would mostly likely be in the real world (Through I wouldn't actually know from experience). Everything about this is just so raw and real: Sexually, they are portrayed as REAL men; not the fantasy seme-uke role but actually have a legit gay relationship. They don't go through the generic "forbidden love" problems but real the relationship struggles that any couple would undergo, but more so because it's between a straight and a gay man. They both constantly contradict what they want and even acknowledge they aren't good together. But love isn't just pure and happiness, but is actually more complex and selfish, and their love is just that. They're two misfits who struggle with the definition of love and realize that it's what they have. I also really liked the role of the girlfriend. She epitomizes everything the straight guy believes love should be like, as well as his life as a straight man. She's not an instrument used to create excessive problems between the couple, but rather someone who creates psychological conflict for the straight guy. She was so real and was an actual human being who had some struggles but just ultimately fell in love with the straight guy. A million times better than the prequel. A different reread.