idek's manga / #slice of life(6)

last read ch.324. it's so good;; everything is really subtle and keeps you guessing what their true intentions and feelings are?? and all of them are actually really good hearted TT (except that 1 guy lol tho he does have a sad past? still a psycho). idk if he tien (dark haired handsome guy) really likes mo guanshan (always angry guy kuku) in the love way? at the start i think he was projecting the puppy he couldn't save when young to mo, but nowadays, it kinda feels like its more? anyway, he is really caring and considerate (although perverted lol). mo.. maybe deep down he kinda has feelings for him as well? or maybe cos he's a really nice guy that's why he shows consideration and care for he tein.. not sure.. theyre so cute tho TT when he tein forces/does some perverted things to him mo's eyes gets all red and teary and he gets so red and flustered TTTTTTT cuties. the other main couple is the long hair dude and xixi (quiet dude). their relationship is more stale? less development than mo and he. xixi .. i dont think he defines his feelings in terms of love or hate for long hair (as he said so himself to the girl), he just views long hair as an essential and non-replaceable existence for him. and i think that kinda made him more tolerant and indulge long hair's desire for more at times because he doesn't want to lose him. (kinda gathered he doesnt really love love long hair in the sensual sense cos he doesnt show desire to further their relationship in the intimate sense nor directly kiss long hair - he used finger touch mouth to mouth kiss when long hair desired a kiss). so to xixi, long hair is an existence that's beyond bfgf, it transcends it. while long hair really love xixi, i think he is also scared to wish for more because he knows xixi only indulges him? but also, i think he also relays on xixi as an irreplaceable existence of strength and support, and not exactly the lover sense. tho he was showing signs of moving towards that direction - thought he might have a hard on thinking abt xixi but dismissed it saying he only felt weird cos a hair was poking and he felt relived. this work really explores the different aspects of love? like ones where it does not have to be explicitly said nor sensual even tho it includes the two aspects.. ..he tein keeps saying dont abandon me to mo TT he has mentioned it twice through out. i hope they end up happy and grow old tgt TTT all these short small things just builds up to form a strong narrative.. tho it's sometimes hard to tell when it's flash back and present, i think that's part of the point? how their relationship didn't change much even after all these time passed. how the days of their middle school(?) and present (where he tein and long hair came back out of the blue after suddenly vanishing on the second day of high school (for long hair)). they were just accepted back like nothing happened.

form comments ppl say it's unique and good read but it's pretty angsty and kinda messed up and the relationships are toxic, kinda love triangle? the first love guy married a wife? but it's loveless? ratings are real good tho. relationship focused

Last read ch2

Last read vol1 ch4. Idk, it should be good but I just don't dig it. The characters personality isn't hitting me, the plot isn't either and the art is lukewarm. Maybe it'll get better later on