idek's manga / #school life(11)

last read ch.25. I want to rate this 4 and a half star cos even tho the character, art and idea is so good, the2 faced beeach is so annoying and mcs still dont have any intention to karma her. frustrated. rather, fl is nice to her. also, the whole stalking the in laws everyday seems so tiring and not smart. I'm sure there could have been better options.. but it makes for good situations for actions to happen. but man, I feel stressed by the obsessive 2 faced beach, that stalker and the jealous junior girl. too much evil *faints

last read ch16.2. really interesting. fl turns strong (mentally) sometimes, like her personality becomes twisted-ish/gansta, but she's still very upright normal commoner. ml is such an enigma. u would think he's total trash, stalker, player, psycho and a total creep who's just obsessed w fl, but that moment when he called fl's grandpa, the way he spoke??? about how him being mistaken as a stalker was the only way to stay close and look after her???? that got me confused about how much of him is an act and if he really does actually like her. fl certainty doesn't like him but i think she's getting used to him and getting a bit too close, and i don't think she even knows that herself. ((ml keeps saying he likes her but still sleeps w other girls, he doesn't like them per say and doesn't find joy in speaking to them? or see them as accepting him? he uses this to get connections.. also think he's deeply possessive and jealous. he can't handle the idea that she might leave him or her and shouma tgt, also think he is a bit off in reaction to her saying that yeah, i do have a lot of acquaintances, after he asked her based on his observation... and he was so obsessed w her kidney... he apparently brought train tickets himself to fl's city to see her years back when they shoudn't have even known eo, but he apparently didnt end up being able to see her? hmm

ml is so sweet and cute (although a bit psycho) TTTT they're actually twins seperated at birth after their loving parents got brutally murdered by their jealous neighbour TT ml is so adob like a puppy (action and looks) (and it was explained in the end note by the author, it was cos she based him off her puppy hahaha) (she explained how when he did something wrong and was scolded he doesn't feel guilt/remorse(?) like how a dog breaks a vase and gets scolded by their owner; and how he's so strong because he lacks this concept of guilt/what is acceptable) he's a total sweetie :( and he's a genius too :(( tho i dont really get towards the ending why he needed to reveal everything to the police and not just go underhanded way like he has previously done hmm and also at the end, he felt more.. naive? childish? innocent than before? but he may have always been this way/also cos he doesnt have so much worries anymore - w his brother at his side - he really has an independence on his twin tho.. wonder how he would react if his brother got a gf/marries... the webtoon ended on a happy note tho; the older brother is studying psychology - maybe he can use that to help ml

last read ch.324. it's so good;; everything is really subtle and keeps you guessing what their true intentions and feelings are?? and all of them are actually really good hearted TT (except that 1 guy lol tho he does have a sad past? still a psycho). idk if he tien (dark haired handsome guy) really likes mo guanshan (always angry guy kuku) in the love way? at the start i think he was projecting the puppy he couldn't save when young to mo, but nowadays, it kinda feels like its more? anyway, he is really caring and considerate (although perverted lol). mo.. maybe deep down he kinda has feelings for him as well? or maybe cos he's a really nice guy that's why he shows consideration and care for he tein.. not sure.. theyre so cute tho TT when he tein forces/does some perverted things to him mo's eyes gets all red and teary and he gets so red and flustered TTTTTTT cuties. the other main couple is the long hair dude and xixi (quiet dude). their relationship is more stale? less development than mo and he. xixi .. i dont think he defines his feelings in terms of love or hate for long hair (as he said so himself to the girl), he just views long hair as an essential and non-replaceable existence for him. and i think that kinda made him more tolerant and indulge long hair's desire for more at times because he doesn't want to lose him. (kinda gathered he doesnt really love love long hair in the sensual sense cos he doesnt show desire to further their relationship in the intimate sense nor directly kiss long hair - he used finger touch mouth to mouth kiss when long hair desired a kiss). so to xixi, long hair is an existence that's beyond bfgf, it transcends it. while long hair really love xixi, i think he is also scared to wish for more because he knows xixi only indulges him? but also, i think he also relays on xixi as an irreplaceable existence of strength and support, and not exactly the lover sense. tho he was showing signs of moving towards that direction - thought he might have a hard on thinking abt xixi but dismissed it saying he only felt weird cos a hair was poking and he felt relived. this work really explores the different aspects of love? like ones where it does not have to be explicitly said nor sensual even tho it includes the two aspects.. ..he tein keeps saying dont abandon me to mo TT he has mentioned it twice through out. i hope they end up happy and grow old tgt TTT all these short small things just builds up to form a strong narrative.. tho it's sometimes hard to tell when it's flash back and present, i think that's part of the point? how their relationship didn't change much even after all these time passed. how the days of their middle school(?) and present (where he tein and long hair came back out of the blue after suddenly vanishing on the second day of high school (for long hair)). they were just accepted back like nothing happened.

Yoooo this the one I saw on Twitter! Similar panel setting to that Chinese shonen ai one, but a yuri vr

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