idek's manga / #childhood friends(7)

last read ch.324. it's so good;; everything is really subtle and keeps you guessing what their true intentions and feelings are?? and all of them are actually really good hearted TT (except that 1 guy lol tho he does have a sad past? still a psycho). idk if he tien (dark haired handsome guy) really likes mo guanshan (always angry guy kuku) in the love way? at the start i think he was projecting the puppy he couldn't save when young to mo, but nowadays, it kinda feels like its more? anyway, he is really caring and considerate (although perverted lol). mo.. maybe deep down he kinda has feelings for him as well? or maybe cos he's a really nice guy that's why he shows consideration and care for he tein.. not sure.. theyre so cute tho TT when he tein forces/does some perverted things to him mo's eyes gets all red and teary and he gets so red and flustered TTTTTTT cuties. the other main couple is the long hair dude and xixi (quiet dude). their relationship is more stale? less development than mo and he. xixi .. i dont think he defines his feelings in terms of love or hate for long hair (as he said so himself to the girl), he just views long hair as an essential and non-replaceable existence for him. and i think that kinda made him more tolerant and indulge long hair's desire for more at times because he doesn't want to lose him. (kinda gathered he doesnt really love love long hair in the sensual sense cos he doesnt show desire to further their relationship in the intimate sense nor directly kiss long hair - he used finger touch mouth to mouth kiss when long hair desired a kiss). so to xixi, long hair is an existence that's beyond bfgf, it transcends it. while long hair really love xixi, i think he is also scared to wish for more because he knows xixi only indulges him? but also, i think he also relays on xixi as an irreplaceable existence of strength and support, and not exactly the lover sense. tho he was showing signs of moving towards that direction - thought he might have a hard on thinking abt xixi but dismissed it saying he only felt weird cos a hair was poking and he felt relived. this work really explores the different aspects of love? like ones where it does not have to be explicitly said nor sensual even tho it includes the two aspects.. ..he tein keeps saying dont abandon me to mo TT he has mentioned it twice through out. i hope they end up happy and grow old tgt TTT all these short small things just builds up to form a strong narrative.. tho it's sometimes hard to tell when it's flash back and present, i think that's part of the point? how their relationship didn't change much even after all these time passed. how the days of their middle school(?) and present (where he tein and long hair came back out of the blue after suddenly vanishing on the second day of high school (for long hair)). they were just accepted back like nothing happened.

straight up emotional manipulation harassment&rpe lmao. it's a good mindless entertainment but lol. dude literally was tricked and manipulated to reciprocate the other guys feelings because he doesn't want them to leave. dS are drawn as mushrooms / light blurred lol. the other guy is fkjng horny and couldn't even use normal means to make ml fall for him or express his feelings other than by tricking ml he will die if he doesn't come (after turning the dude on by touching him) got some other questionable scenes as well, like when his friends? randomly came to teach ml how to save the other guy from dying and it was blow job practice with mushrooms.. kind turned into a suggested orgry? but with mushrooms... and ml got turned on from that (tho we don't know how much was cos the poisonous mushroom and how much was him).

Last read ch30. Sweet, cute, hot :( the black hair ml is such a dream guy

His twin needs help lol. It’s ok

Last read ch5. The guy is so fucking sweet TTTTTTTTTTT he loves her and stood by her as her childhood best friend cos he knows she doesn't view him that way, and now he took this chance and she also loves him TTTTTT he's such a sweetheart and so understanding and patient and gentle :(((((((( girl has an insensitive body (more like she kept dating trash and they didn't really love her thus no gentle consideration and ya know, so she wasn't turned on at all) she was traumatised but ml got her so wet cos his every move is full of love!!! Ugh 4.7, 6? Cos lol, I don't really know her personality, it just hasn't flushed out yet since it's focused on her condition

It's good but also meh, short hair guy has a screw loose lol, he's crazy for ml but he actually didn't really act too crazy, just obsessed?