WOW that was,, breathes a little, insanely heavy and a fucking rollercoaster. I genuinely think this is one of the most graphic self harm manhwas I have ever read, not sure if I should compliment the author for the great psychological portrayal or be sad because it almost made me relapse *skull emoji* I'm just such a loss for words, the ending was so satisfying but at the same time not, the way the author made the scenes between the second ml and the mc was really interesting, because it was rape, but it was also a little more complex. it was the desperate relationship between two people who had no one else until mc was rightfully loved by a great man. ml wasn't perfect, but he was patient, genuinely caring, and respected mc for what he wanted to do, quite rare in these kinds of stories. esp when mc left him, ml stayed close but never confronted mc while making sure he was ok. the plot was meh overall, it wasn't exactly complex, but the characters and drama. wowza. on a whole another level completely. we read a story that made us feel almost pity for mc's abuser and that was rough. it wasn't entirely from past trauma but rather that he desperately needed mc, in the end though, I'm so happy he let go of mc. mc is able to heal with his lover and that makes me so happy. i love the whole chello part, it added a bit of inner turmoil for mc and I esp loved when he made a mistake w the ml and ml was like "that's ok, just try again" my heart. i like how mc kinda got back into playing but not completely, goes to show that healing takes time, super cute how they threw the old one out. i think one of my most fav aspects in the story is when mc regained his memories but didn't stay w ml, I disliked him first because of that but it really commits the whole idea that even psychological damage cannot be healed with love (as in second ml's approach), that is why professional treatment is so important, really nice when he still checks in w doctors and has less pills. ugh makes me so happy. the amount of emotions and craziness this story put me through is like no other, I can finally breathe a sigh of relief that its finally over. I'm so glad mc ended up w the first ml QQ and that he went back to school. i wish them only happiness for the rest of their lives together :>
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