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Summary from unknown I think Law may just have finally realized what his obsessions were doing to himself. Remember the part when Law explained his habit of burning his palm with the cigarette and when Jesse burned him? Law said that if he does not feel pain, as the administrator he would be able to maintain the reality and stimulation separate. But he was surprised when Jesse burned him; perhaps he felt pain and all that he knows to be fake, and of his own creation, was all too real for him. In the last chapter he also uses the word 'aftermirage'. An aftermirage is when the effect of the stimulus is continuous despite the fact that the stimulation has ended. Now we need to consider the most confusing part of the webtoon: the dreams and realities. Both Jesse's and Law's stimulation begins and ends randomly. When Jesse is confused of all lies of Law, Law must also have been confused of his own lies/created scenarios because of Jesse's reactions. Simply put, Law tricked & hooked Jesse under his 'experiment' of subconscious realization to truly see what Jesse feels for him, thinking and hoping that in the end, in the very deep, Jesse must have felt something; at least affection of some form. Instead, he continuously experiences doubts, suspicions, and even 'give-up' state of Jesse; state which is so different from Law's imaginations, expectations, and his own reactions in the past. That is why at the very end of the 'experiment', instead of resetting the moritat he revealed everything and set free Jesse to the real world. But Law, himself was still trapped in his own memories. He keeps saying 'do not control me'. But to whom does he say that? He first says this to Jesse, then to his parents, then finally to himself. In the end, just like Jesse said while embracing Law, Law is just a stray that's lost in its own big world and confused. In reality he needed the leash on him to survive, which he accepts when Jesse puts it on. My conclusion is this: Jesse may be arrogant and rich, spoiled individual; but at least he is his own person. Law, on the other hand, has always been 'handled' and labelled as the infidelity, servant, toy, and etc since childhood; he was never a person. For so long he refused to accept this reality. So he blames Jesse. Law knew Jesse was more complete as a person, which he envied. But envy has, at certain point, turned into admiration and then to love; he was silently begging for affection of Jesse, so that in turn he could be completed. And it is this love that caused all these dreams and delusion of moritat; love that is so great that he wants to hurt Jesse, kill Jesse. But in the end, he is still incomplete; the moritat 'experiment' proved nothing more than the fact that Jesse is more capable and Law overestimated himself.

Im about to die. No, im already dead. Holy motherfckr it was 12 in the morning i read it with lights off and almost scream out of my lungs from the overcuteness. The ending of s1 kills me. Ohgosh happiness do exist. I screamed internally and couldnt hide my embarrassment when seeing how cute Star and Fanboy when they finally get tgt. It was quite so-so at first, the drawings arent bad but arent too great either. But once you really captured the feelings, holyfck that was way too adorable and the drawings and the plot and the cuteness are just beyond help. No, im the one who beyond help writing this rn holymoly. Im so gonna root this couple and series. So much happiness so much cuteness ch 153

haaaaahhhhh.. youve done it now jihyun. I like jihyun x chiwoo pairing tbh. But jihyun's temper and his obsession after ch 30 is a bit overboard tsktsk but stillllll, if theyve had a chance id like yo see them tgt T.T AHHHHH ANYWAY THATS ONE HECK OF A CUTE ENDING!!! Slowburn manga iloveeee