Kimi to Uchuu wo Aruku Tame ni
Ch. 9 Found this at the bookstore and wow did i find a hidden gem. The rating kinda shocked me (for being so high) but after reading it i believe that it's totally well deserved. First time I've felt so represented by almost every character in it (to an extent). First uno, he's autistic (not explicitly stated but prolly) and i mainly relate to how he gets it social battery sucked dry after a while. It's also an introvert trait which is probably more me, but totally felt represented in this aspect; the way he goes along with his friend for a day but gets tired halfway through, but pushes on because despite that he's still having fun; the way he feels bad about it and doesn't want to tell them about it because he's afraid they'll take it the wrong way and not invite him again. The other aspects of him while it's not to his extent i relate to too, like the way he systematically deals with social situations, having specifics rules and having to go through them to figure out what to do, like it's not to his extent but i def do have my own rules for when I'm lost, and logical figure out the best method. Also the way he gets excited and talks about things he enjoys and doesn't realize he's overdoing it, i do that sometimes, tho i think a lot of people do and it's normal(?). Anyways all in all, love him he's super cute. Moving on to my spirit dude, kin, if you will, the mc(sry forgot his name n lazy to check), i relate to him the most FOR SURE, he's literally me(save for a few parts that i took from other character, like a Frankenstein abomination if i do say do myself). Mainly, he probably has ADHD(like i suspect i do), so all the characters like forgetfulness, cannot focus, forever distracted, etc totally relatable. The way he started writing things down lest he forgets (like my calender of reminders, and the way i had instructions for how to cook instant noodles), the way he can't focus in class or when someone speaks when it's hella boring—literally me, I don't remember ever successfully paying attention in class lol (tho this could be me being forgetful and memory loss which ties back to the first point), also the way he studies better if there's picture, ngl dk if i do but i def remember pictures and scenes more than words. The way he fidgets and can't sit still. The way he's blind(needs glasses). The way he ties his shoes leaving his equipment on the side and completely forgetting about it(no object permenance/just forgetful). The way he gets upset when criticised for doing things wrong, indignant since it wasn't in his control so he lashes out, can't control his emotions. The way he was late(dk if this is recurring for him). The way he missed his alarm once. The way he can't study alone(I'm more productive with other people around as long as they don't distract me). The way ...i forgot what else so I'll leave it there. There are ways we differ though: while this may just be product of our environment and upbringing, (i was gonna say he doesn't get stressed but i felt like that was denying all his suffering so ig not) but i can use stress as a motivator for me to study so i can cram and not fail when push comes to shove, guess he can't tho from the looks of it. Also, he's an extrovert. Nuff said. Lastly(for now), the club pres, another spirit dude just from the way he overthinks and overanalyzes yet fails all the same at social situations. At first i thought i related to uno regarding social cues since i also suck at them, but then this guy came along and holy shit he's just me. Overthinking what to say yet saying the wrong thing due to overthinking and regretting it and avoiding the problem by (in his case contemplating) not talking to people ever again. Literally just combine this trait of this guy(club pres) with the mc and voilà it literally me. If i ever go to therapy I'll need to bring this along. Wish i could just push it onto my parents so they can understand me for once. All in all, 10/10. Thanks, Tsutaya bookstore for showing me the light. (Ngl thought this was bl at first from the cover which is why i was interested in the first place lol, now i know, it's much more than that). Also omg just realised it hasn't updated in more than half a year nooooo pleasee don't do this to meeeeeee
Hiyoko to Yoru to Yuenchi