The long term effects of being molested and a subconscious tendency to romatasize the event and think that the person who did it actually loved you when in reality they were just a victim of the ruthless cycle that is sexual trauma as a child. Even so your own head says that they love you and thay they are the only person that ever did so your can't help but believe that even if it hurts how you develop relationships what they did is justified due to a non-existent connection between.
In fact, it shouldn't even do much damage. It's just sex. Everyone has sex. You just had it earlier than everyone else because you were strong. You could handle it at 6. You handled it. It didn't damage you. You are strong. You are not scared. Phrases that repeat like a wound up toy, circulating in your thoughts to make yourself feel less insecure and ashamed. Why would you? Sex was a natural process and you were strong.
And I think I just projected my own experience. Whooops
Nii-chan (harada)