buttcruncher's manga / #spicy(44)

unrequited love realized?? childhood friends to lovers?? beefy hot uke?? THE CONFESSION?? bless

the STANDARDS this story set for me back in the day

so i didn't think i'd be into femboys but they really ate so here we are

an entire story revolving around a guy's super sensitive nipples seems ridiculous and it is, but i didn't expect to find something more complex revolving around the tension and loneliness between two childhood friends. i feel like some pages might have gotten lost, cut off, or rearranged bc the flow was kind of weird but the gist of it was enough to grab me

lay is a nougat: tough on the outside, soft and mallowy on the inside. there's a part of me that wishes he was just a hardass who slowly falls for alex. his much sadder backstory sort of comes along with the abused-exploited-uke package which skews him as a more typical uke for me. he also seems to be in a really bad place to put himself in such low regard and to so easily latch onto the idea of alex and his affections--which seems superficial and savior complex-like? anyways maybe i remembered everything wrong and i'll re-noodle in the future

gorgeous art, super slow pacing but it's pretty engaging. i'm only finding it ok bc while lyle is an absolute sweetheart ash is another story. in the earlier chapters i was basically his hypeman since bc he's so dang charming, but when the smallest conflict came up he dealt with it like a complete douchebag and the resolution was totally unsatisfactory for me. the thing with stories like this is it seems really sweet on the outside so characters like him get forgiven really easily even though they don't put in the work to understand why they're wrong and do better. the relationship also feels unbalanced, bc while ash can see lyle's vulnerabilities and has always seen him at least as an equal (or maybe even looked down on him to an extent), lyle always put ash on a pedastal, even at the point i stopped, which was where they decided to commit to their relationship. ash didn't try to make lyle feel like they're equals in partnership. ash's thoughts about lyle also felt a bit gross, kind of redpill-like, treating him like a cryptograph he needs to decrypt and categorize. his "i can't help myself"s could have been really hot if their relationship is on equal footing but in this case it just feels like he's taking advantage of lyle's affection for him.

i was gone the moment tooru popped up completely debauched in mizuki's thoughts