andy2mc's manga / #Toxic(35)

6.5/7?

The art in this one is so fugly, but the psychological aspects to it are interesting

8 I really enjoy this genre. Even though I liked guildmate next door more, this one was really good too. The ml is so unhinged lol

7.5 or 8? Too early to rate. So far I quite like the uke, but also feel like he is too much talk and no bark. I hope he actually gets revenge on the top and doesn’t just let everything slide bc he catches feelings. I hope he becomes ruthless towards him. And so far I don’t like the seme at all

10 Truly grotesque (in the best way possible). It's certainly not everyone's cup of tea--- but it is mine lmao. It's extremely gory and graphic... but it had no right being such a skilfully written story. It grabs your undivided attention from the start with its addictive weirdness. But it somehow gets better and better in ways you wouldn't expect. And unravels in such a poignant tragic manner. It comes full circle in such an emotionally striking way. It's truly so beautifully written. A rollercoaster of emotions that makes you reflect deeply about human nature and desires. It’s utterly heartbreaking and twisted, and so beautifully written. I love it and I hate it so much. It got me sobbing non-stop to the point of dehydration. The ending is heart wrenching, but it's the perfect ending for the story. It's the type of tragedy that you seem coming but can't escape its grasp nonetheless. The type of doom that breaks you completely in it being completely unavoidable... which makes it somehow so so much worse. It's such a poetic story, and masterfully delivered. The way J ends up killing himself so he could be finally free... PAINNNNN. He basically used Makoto to get him to say his name so he could be set free from his century-long loneliness (that comes from being the strongest unreachable individual). Just like Wald used Jonathan in the same manner… and how Makoto is now going to do with his future “disciple”. The self-fulling cycle of blinding obsession, and utter soul-crushing loneliness. That’s “Wald’s curse”. You rise to the top due to the obsession love-hate you nurture towards the initialed who took you in. Until you become stronger than them and can say their name. That becomes your only goal and motivation. Your only reason to exist, what allows to survive. Similarly, the initialed holds on to you like their one and only lifeline. Once they get you to say their names, they are finally free and able to kill themselves (demons can only die if they are completely forgotten or when saying the full name of a more powerful demon). Which leaves you empty since you no longer have your source of obsession and utterly lonely, with no way to put an end to your misery. Which leads you to look for a disciple that can outpower you eventually so you can finally be free……. And so the cycle continues. I'm not even sure if there ever was love between any of them... the way this antagonistic whirl of emotions is depicted is so poignant. Perfection really. A true masterpiece. It rips you apart. At the end of the day, they are all just agonizing in their loneliness and seeking for an escape to this ending all-consuming pit. (Just writing this is making me tear up in the middle of Starbucks lmao) The artstyle is also god tier. It manages to capture this contradicting emotions so rawly. One certainly needs to be open minded to enjoy this manga, but once you perceive it beyond its weirdness and gore, you can truly admire the masterpiece this is. Capturing this oh-so-utterly-human all-consuming seamingly-unescapable bottom-less loneliness

8.5 The author is an absolute menace but I LOVED this one. One of the best psychological I’ve read so far, especially the first half of the story. Very satisfying. The plot was really intriguing and the tension was tensioning

7.5? A bit too early to rate. The art was turning me off at the beginning but I warmed up to it. It kinda reminds me of The Beast Must Die