andy2mc's manga / #Mental health(17)

10 Truly grotesque (in the best way possible). It's certainly not everyone's cup of tea--- but it is mine lmao. It's extremely gory and graphic... but it had no right being such a skilfully written story. It grabs your undivided attention from the start with its addictive weirdness. But it somehow gets better and better in ways you wouldn't expect. And unravels in such a poignant tragic manner. It comes full circle in such an emotionally striking way. It's truly so beautifully written. A rollercoaster of emotions that makes you reflect deeply about human nature and desires. It’s utterly heartbreaking and twisted, and so beautifully written. I love it and I hate it so much. It got me sobbing non-stop to the point of dehydration. The ending is heart wrenching, but it's the perfect ending for the story. It's the type of tragedy that you seem coming but can't escape its grasp nonetheless. The type of doom that breaks you completely in it being completely unavoidable... which makes it somehow so so much worse. It's such a poetic story, and masterfully delivered. The way J ends up killing himself so he could be finally free... PAINNNNN. He basically used Makoto to get him to say his name so he could be set free from his century-long loneliness (that comes from being the strongest unreachable individual). Just like Wald used Jonathan in the same manner… and how Makoto is now going to do with his future “disciple”. The self-fulling cycle of blinding obsession, and utter soul-crushing loneliness. That’s “Wald’s curse”. You rise to the top due to the obsession love-hate you nurture towards the initialed who took you in. Until you become stronger than them and can say their name. That becomes your only goal and motivation. Your only reason to exist, what allows to survive. Similarly, the initialed holds on to you like their one and only lifeline. Once they get you to say their names, they are finally free and able to kill themselves (demons can only die if they are completely forgotten or when saying the full name of a more powerful demon). Which leaves you empty since you no longer have your source of obsession and utterly lonely, with no way to put an end to your misery. Which leads you to look for a disciple that can outpower you eventually so you can finally be free……. And so the cycle continues. I'm not even sure if there ever was love between any of them... the way this antagonistic whirl of emotions is depicted is so poignant. Perfection really. A true masterpiece. It rips you apart. At the end of the day, they are all just agonizing in their loneliness and seeking for an escape to this ending all-consuming pit. (Just writing this is making me tear up in the middle of Starbucks lmao) The artstyle is also god tier. It manages to capture this contradicting emotions so rawly. One certainly needs to be open minded to enjoy this manga, but once you perceive it beyond its weirdness and gore, you can truly admire the masterpiece this is. Capturing this oh-so-utterly-human all-consuming seamingly-unescapable bottom-less loneliness

7.5 A very interesting take on recessive/dominant omegaverse. The seme is such a cute puppy omg.

8/8.5 He’s so horny I love it AHAHAH and fucking unhinged lol. The top is so fucking sweet and a precious crybaby. It made my heart flutter. It’s so kinky eheh

9 (potential 9.5) This one was absolutely phenomenal (Continue review later)

So far it's good but tbh I expected more. Ig my expectations were too high

7.5 It’s giving me butterflies. Making me blush like crazy. It reminds me of December in that sense. Ml is best boi fr fr. absolutely adorable. Their romance is so green and realistic. I love how the ml doesn’t expect him to forget the ex. He’s truly the standard It’s not horror on the level of Ghost Gate and Black Mirror, but it does have spooky/creepy scenes. It’s mostly mystery thriller and the romantic plot line is the cutest greenest thing. It also feels very realistic in the way it depicts grief and it pulled at my heart strings at times. The art also improves as it goes. While the romantic pacing/build up is pretty good, the storytelling pacing at times is kinda wacky. Idk how to put it but it feels kinda exposition-y/flat (?) Overall I had a lot of fun reading it tho!

7.5/8 (if it is done right, might up to 8.5) I was not expecting that plot twist. It really caught me off guard. I was so convinced the uke’s previous lover was the father…. But it turns out *he* was the baby daddy… wow. So it was the sister!?! Then what abt the passport? Who is that? DAMNNNN the creator’s note made me wanna reread the whole thing ASAP. I just finished reading the first season of At The End of Death and the creator’s note is making me wanna reread the entire thing ASAPPP!! I love when a story is planned out from the start and the author carefully plants hints throughout Now im starting to hope it becomes a new Radio Storm storytelling wise. I’m such a fucking sucker for well planned out story structures aaaa