dazaspas's manga / #Drama(43)

A bittersweet and short omegaverse with older men. =) Includes themes such as grief and the omegaverse equivalent to menopause.

This is absolutely sad and yet so beautiful. . Adolph and Lewis were once in love and had a healthy relationship. They were cute together, but their relationship turned into an abusive one, with Adolph hurting Lewis both physically and psychologically. . Adolph, who was a sweet boy, began to be cold, lie, cheat and eventually even raped his partner. Lewis was a bright kid, but he gave up on himself and his dreams and started living only for Lewis, who became more and more abusive as time went on. . In addition to this broken relationship, Lewis also had to deal with his deteriorating health and undergo cancer treatment alone. That's how he met Ivan - his lovely doctor - who ended up falling in love with Lewis and stayed by his side caring (and giving lots of love) for him during his final months. . I like how realistic the story is and how well it portrays an abusive relationship in which the abused person still deeply loves the abuser. All the sadness and hope that the good times will return, all the struggles to give up on a relationship that is long dead, all the suffering for the feelings you have to let go of... The depiction of the difficulties after finally letting go of the broken relationship is also extremely real and well done. All the struggle to believe that you are worth of TRUE love and affection, accepting someone else's and even your own new feelings, building a new and healthy relationship... . I wish there was a new story (AU, reincarnation or something else) showing Lewis and Ivan in a wholesome, happy and long lasting relationship. ️

-I'm gonna give this a ten because the story and art are really good, and generally speaking I really liked it... But I was deeply upset on how the author chose to depict and address all dub-con/non-con, specially with the first couple... I will talk about this later on. . There are two couples in this story: - Mr. 100% Perfect (Suk-yun) and Woo-in - first/main couple; - Yoonseol and Jungsoo - second couple, but it feels like they're actually main couple. . -> First couple's story is about getting back together and being your true self with your partner. Also dealing with each other's flaws and their own fears and past. They are absolutely in love with each other and most of the time it's a very cute couple. However, Mr. Perfect's anxiety is a problem for him and for their relationship since he starts being very rough during sex and it was clearly hurting the bottom. Also, from the moment the uke said stop/no that turned into abuse and that's is even easier to realize once we see that he passes out and is full of bruises latter. IMO it's actually sad that the author chose to put that in their story and then brushed it off under the rug... She actually wrote it in a way that kinda justifies his behavior and that's just baaaad. . Also, I know it's a common thing in BLs for bottoms to say stop/no/slow down (and so on) when they're feeling to much pleasure and their tops never stop. They keep going Cuz they "know" the bottoms are just overwhelmed by pleasure and in reality they don't wanna stop(?)... I ABSOLUTELY hate this cuz it's a bad way to portray sex and it doesn't show what CONSENSUAL sex is supposed to be! I'm somewhat used to reading it by now, but it always makes me uncomfortable and if something like thid happened in real life it would be horrible and mortifying... Since one cannot read other's thoughts, if someone says stop you should just stop and that's it. . However, in this particular story and that specific chapter, reading Woo-in saying stop/no (and so on) and Suk-yun going on even harder was just terrible... It wasn't the same as what we are used to see in others BLs, but actual sexual assault behavior... Woo-in was actually crying and he even mentioned that Mr. 100% Perfect not listening to what he asked for was kinda cruel. . I kept waiting for them to talk about it, but it took so long... And then when it actually happened it was not how it should have been! They were happy with each other afterwards, but as a reader their conversation was very unsatisfying and the whole situation/problem wasn't properly dealt with. . -> Second couple has a beautiful development and I really like how Yoonseol turns into a loving and caring partner. He grows a lot as a human being as well and it's nice to follow their story. Also, Jungsoo is such an amazing person... I love him! . There is a bit of dub-con for them as well and I really don't like how the author works it, but it's not as bad as with the main couple.