reading this was hell…purely hell. I can’t express the saddening feeling in words…i just simply cannot accept that it ended like that…like that. I sobbed and cried my eyes out absolutely every volume even if knowing that it won’t end up well…life is tricky…it’s like russian roulette, you don’t know when the harsh/hard/traumatising/unforgettable moments hit, you have to fight to get through them. I can’t explain how precious and complex ash’s character is, truly one of the best written characters i’ve ever seen. How can someone at that young age was forced and taught to live by himself, having to get over as how traumatising the flashbacks of his sexual trauma were, how he did not want to lose connection with eiji being self conscious of his coldness for others, the cruel way of self control by killing countlessly…how he did wanted to sacrifice himself, yet it has actually achieved by the cruel death. In my heart they will be together forever as in the extras…they live a happy life without any past trauma, i know that. <3
Banana Fish