// COMPLETED // vol. 2 chptr. 8,5 // 6 août. 2020
reading this again 2years later it gave me a complete different feeling than the first time. at first i thought this was gloomy, grey and felt weird however now that i’ve grown a bit and matured some more, natsume’s sister haru didn’t feel like a heartless bitch nor a monster that i wanted to punch. she’s a commun character with expected reactions. she fell in love and got engaged to Tougo really young, she was still somewhere in highschool. Her love was childish, new and brutal for her to fell for the first time (as first love’s are) so of course being near death and seing him fall in love with her sister she couldn’t wish them to end up happily ever after, she wasn’t mature enough and it’s actually quite normal for her age ? she didn’t look evil and thus, i don’t think the curse would be effectiv. our lovebirds can have their good ending. another thing i felt was that natsume san’s love wasn’t what she thought it was. haru was her only family to her, « they only had each other » and when a man came in the picture she felt like her only someone was taken away, she didn’t hate him the more time passed and wished him bad everyday, only at the start when she felt robbed, however it was never in a sense of a lover getting stolen away. i felt that Touga loved natsume way more that what was showed and i wished he had told her, because the gap was way too adorable to be kept. i don’t think he would have been fine marrying Haru, making kids and living a commun life, since he only looked at natsume and felt alive with her or around her (wich led haru to have hateful thougts) i think he wouldn’t have been able to ignore his feelings for her as he thinks he would have and it would have created such a beautiful and emotional mess that it conforts me in his thoughts. this was actually really down to earth and i would die to have more snippets of their lives together.
Haru No Noroi