LeiLei's manga / #Rape(153)

The couple themselves are good together but it's the story that I'm opting out of. The uke gets raped a lot by other people and the story is really heavy. Maybe when I'm more mentally stable, I'll give it a read.

Well, I came because SOMEONE said it was good smut and now I'm traumatized. I didn't read the comments but I did read the tags so I understood that there was going to be tragedy, rape, and psychological portions of this story but it was wayyyyy more than I thought. Personally, I read BL for the fluff and the "plot" - sometimes, I'm able to read the heavy stuff but this was a lot more than I was used to. I just felt so bad for every single character but mainly for the MC. The thing that hurt the most is when he said that he had been there for everyone and everyone loved him for it but the moment he needed them, they abandoned him. AND even the people he still viewed in a positive light betrayed that later in the story. I have so many thoughts and I can't write them all down. Also, that was a fucking open ending and I HATE OPEN ENDINGSSSSS The only thing I was happy to read was that he could finally say he was proud of himself

I don't know how I feel about this... He's just so aggressive in everything. I guess it makes sense that his personality won't change that drastically but it feels so weird to see him be hot and cold. I get that he loves Mokhwa and being forward in emotions isn't the part that sets me off - it's when Mokhwa doesn't understand why he's doing this and then the seme gets so mad and say the meanest things. For me, I would throw a punch or two if someone said the same shit to me.

What the hell - how did it become so wholesome at the end there.

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