lev's manga / #Manhwa(2)

first chapters were okay till the mc reincarnated, it started getting worse with her being pathetic always having thoughts about the things done to her by her "sister" from her first life. like i cant im trying to tolerate her waiting for the time where she starts controlling her own life because truly she does have the power to control her life in her second life but she isnt taking the chance and her way of controlling her life is backwards like she fr going backwards with it instead of controlling her life and being a strong mc she decides to play the mc that cries and put themselves in pain. im trying to understand like in a relaistic pov but i cant i might just end up dropping this manhwa