Kaiiaa's manga / #trauma(39)

57 6 seme was about to get hard (big deal since he usually can’t) 8 uke gets shot 10,10.5 hits me in the feels 16 seme helps uke -giving him a blowjob & uke asks if this is what typical sex is like 22 uke finds out seme can get hard again 23 uke confesses feelings (not directly) and seme kisses uke 25 they do it and uke experiences what actually lovemaking feels like for first time 34 seme gets shot trying to protect uke 40 uke dreams of seme for the nth time, they run into each other again after 4 years 41 uke lets slip to seme that he “regained” his memories 44 seme asks if they can do it since it seems uke is still doing it with other guys and he’s no longer his underling, grabs uke aggressively-almost kissing him but gets interrupted, uke gets hard thinking about it (uke’s been impotent ever since they did it but the moment seme touches him he gets hard again), seme gets moony eyed thinking of uke when asked how he prefers his women, tells uke scars will ruin his beautiful face 45 seme grabs uke away from inami (guy he was going to hook up with) 46 they angry kiss, seme kisses him and fingers him, makes uke cum (first time in 4 years), uke learns seme has a woman since he’s much better at doing this than before, seme says uke can only do it with him while they work together on the case 47-we learn that uke’s been impotent, seme gets pissed seeing that uke had hooked up with inami 48 kamiya notes semes been in a bad mood since uke showed up, uke grabs seme to be his bodyguard even though kamiya was assigned (since seme had purposefully opted out) 49 seme carries uke to bed 50 seme stops being gentle and ties ukes hands up, fingers him, they talk to club madame who said money was stolen from their club and uke hears that seme often goes to her house, gets jealous and goes to hook up with kido, seme finds him and is furious, takes him away 51 uke notes this is the angriest hes ever seen seme, sees semes yakuza tattoo of his new group on back, gets pissed and hits him, seme grabs him and they kiss 52 they do it (not lovingly-seme doing it “to satisfy uke’s need to be fucked” since the last time he was gentle with him and got abandoned after), calls semes name in a really vulnerable manner for him to put it in, cums immediately when seme puts it in (couldnt even get hard for others), cums another time, gets sad thinking that seme might be gentle to women in a way he isnt with him rn (big development since he’s infamous for being a masochist but is now thinking how he would have liked for seme to have treated him more gently), sees seme had kept the contact case he had stolen from his first love (seme had taken it out of jealousy) 55 seme finds out uke can’t get it up other than him 56 uke indirectly confesses his feelings, THEY do it (still with pretense that it’s just hooking up and nothing more) -the end of 52 does a great job of summarizing all the people and groups they are part of -Yashiro (shachou)=uke, now a casino owner after disbanding, wont back down from getting his money back from the okuyama group even though sakura group asks him to stay out of it for his safety and bc misumi has good relations with okuyama group’s parent-kyokuseikai (doesnt want to get on the bad side of misumi and his group if uke gets hurt and also hurt the good relationship misumi has with kyoseikei) -Doumeki=seme, ukes old driver and bodyguard that joined after getting out of prison after beating up his sister’s rapist, aspired to be a police officer, is said to now have a woman (head madame from club), currently tasked with tracking down the people behind daughter’s kidnapping to take them out as revenge -Misumi=former head (kamichou) of shinsekai, brought uke into the group, former lovers with him at one time, head of Doushinkai -Amou=right hand and step son of misumi (mom aka misusing wife died) -Kido=guy both seme and uke happen to be tracking down since he owes uke money and also ran over semes yakuza gangmate +kidnapped another (yamakawa)+took their money, the brother of aniki-guy they both track down first to use as bait -Yamakawa=guy who escaped with kido, cash cow of the Okuyama Group -Kamiya= semes new yakuza partner, leopard print shirt -Sakura Group of the Sanwaikai=new group seme joined after uke left, now in a feud with okuyama -Tsunakawa=head (kamichou) of sakura (semes group), earring in right ear, scar on eyebrow, has a little daughter that seme saved from a kidnapping named Niki -Muraji= tsunakawa’s right hand man (wakagashira) -Okuyama Group of the Kyokuseikai= new enemy -Ryuuzu= sub group of okuyama group, supposed to be a non yakuza group, gunned down a sub group of the doushinkai -Okuyama= head of ryuuzu group, used to be sakura groups successor, left when he didnt get the succession, extremely ambitious, had something to do with sakura boss’ daughter’s kidnapping, vertical scar down his left eye -Shinshikei Group of the Doushinkai= old group uke was top dog at, disbanded after scuffle with the Godou group (which was destroyed) -Matsubara group= another group -Ryuuzaki=head of matsubara, little moustache and wisps of hair on chin, soft on uke, they used to hook up, in prison rn -Inami=cop who uke sleeps with to get intel -Nanahara= ukes underling and semes former senior -Sukimoto= ukes other underling, freckles, multiple piercings -Kageyama=doctor, fetish for burn scars and marks, uke’s first love, had the contacts case that uke kept -Kuga=kageyamas bf, ‘mad dog’ delinquent

boris (seme) consumed with guilt that he didnt do anything after witnessing a girl get raped (girl killed herself cuz of it) and meets uke who has been raped multiple times and is forced to whore himself out to make a living.

54-uke proceeding with his scheming-broke out of the lawyers place https://mangatoto.com/series/115909/missing-love hit me in the feels (majority is seme taking care of uke in the present): 7, 14, 15, 16, 22, 23, 24, 25, 31 (flashback scenes 38-41) 38 seme doing everything he can to try to find uke, breaks down, students commenting how he’s super distracted (back to present) 42 seme hugs and kisses uke crying 43 attorney sees pics of uke being shy with seme, uke wanting to protect seme and now having a goal to get back to him 45 seme gets kidnapped and beat up, pisses uke off since he had security tasked with guarding seme but they didn’t do the job (on purpose) 46 seme is released, asks if he can see uke just for a sec, uke is hiding behind building watching him 47 yeonseo telling uke seme became a wreck after uke disappeared, was ready to devote the rest of his life to uke, seme tells rieder the memory of seme will never be outshined in uke’s mind by anyone else 48 seme learns that uke had cried out his name so many times consciously and unconsciously that rieder had no choice but to remember it, that uke had really liked him back then, begs uke to come with him even just for a minute 49 uke breaks things off with him (for his own safety), seme breaks down begging him not to, uke kisses him and leaves (smiling that it had sounded like a marriage proposal), warned by yeonseo that seme had almost lost his mind when he disappeared and had just started coming back to life 50 seme thinks about how he’ll never give up on uke and that he will be the one to take him away in the end 53 uke hallucinates seme kissing him and thinks about how everytime he’s about to let everything go-lingering feelings show up geom lee=uke wooyeon lim= seme rieder lee= sussy silver haired anti seme yeon seo = their female friend kwon lee=attorney uke’s using kang jangchung= works at ch, doesnt rlly like uke CH= company that uke’s in chairman jang=head of it KJ= other company won jongyeol=some director with massive sex scandal caused by uks own doing

40 uke gives seme bj for first time 3 they do it (seme loses v card) 11 made me tear up a little: 11,16 do it 32

https://battwo.com/chapter/1780018. 82.5 15 seme finds out uke was seeing someone 22 uke breaks up with gf, worried about seme after the dead body came down during seme’s concert, wants to reach out to him 25 simon finds conor waiting for him in front of his door after years (but then it goes into longass flashback) 45 end of flashback to where conor goes back to simon + 47 just makes my heart melt 78 conor takes care of simon in the hospital

4, 7.7 they do it Every Tuesday night, a mysterious man named ?Ito? visits Kyosuke, who is a prostitute, and talks to him about silly things until dawn. One day, he brings a briefcase full of money and tries to give it to Kyosuke, telling him that he wants him to quit his job and do something he truly wants to do. turns out seme is this ‘experiment’ trained as an emotionless hitman that goes rogue after developing feelings for uke. they go on the run from seme’s agency and are seperated for years until seme comes back to uke.

53- reread (no bookmarks onwards) 8-9 seme and uke ‘do it’ (inner thighs not actually put in tho) 12 they do it (ukes first time) in alley cuz seme got jealous seeing him do the porn vids 13 uke realizing how much he had fallen for seme 20 they do it (properly on a bed and not an alley- this time uke being the one who wants it) 26-7 seme saves uke from being raped and they do it 34 seme tells uke he’s actually develop-ed feelings for him 38 seme gets stabbed 40 they reunite 46 seme asks uke to live together 49 seme proposes to uke

75 uke is flying to korea to find the second piece of the puzzle for the wikileaks, seme told uke he’s figuring out if he has feelings for him, uke still believes his stepmother is alive 38 we get ukes backstory abt being completely alone after his father dies 41 seme makes uke give him a bj 46 they kiss 51 uke faints after seeing his mothers paintings displayed, seme takes him back to his bed and takes care of him 52 seme shows uke the vid of his kidnapping and how his father was involved, uke hugs seme comforting him, seme takes ukes shirt off pinching his nips 53-4 THEY do it 57 uke says seme chose him bc he’s the key to obtaining the wikileaks and not bc he was charming, seme disagrees saying it was precisely bc he was so charming esp now when they’ve slept together (since his heart follows his body and he’s very hard to please down there) 58 they leave the ship for break, they dont see each other for 2 weeks, seme comes back and is pissed that uke only thinks of him as money since he couldnt stop thinking about uke for the whole 2 weeks, uke realizes seme might actually like him and decides to water this ‘seedling’ as backup 59 seme spoonfeeds fruit to uke, uke asks if he gets horny bc of him, seme answers ‘anyone would’, asks uke to sleep (zzz) with him since he cant sleep alone when hes drunk, uke thinks that he must be completely drunk as well since he thinks seme is cute atm, seme hugs him close and they spoon Hawon Joo (uke, was a rich boy growing up, painter mother committed suicide, father died and his stepmother ran away so he was left with all the debt, is made to work on a ship as the casino dealer with the promise of having all his debt cleared by seme, is the only one who can access the wikileaks his father collected that can blackmail all the big company’s to bankruptcy, dreams of getting out of debt and having his own seaweed farm with Jahan, has given up on the idea of being loved after being left and betrayed by those that were supposed to love him louie), Taeha Kwon (seme, heir of STA, was kidnapped when he was younger by uke’s father- his own father didnt try to get him back), Hyunsuk Baek (pretended to be there for uke when his father died but forced himself on uke instead), Aeil Kwon (dark brown hair guy whose been hitting on uke, uke is tasked to steal his ‘way back home’ painting that ukes mom drew for seme, owns uke’s mother’s paintings, connected to the Tex Company, seme’s rival), Hwan (Aeil’s fiancé that happened to be the lost tourist uke helped in the beginning, super rich family but she’s pretty humble herself, likes talking to uke), Jahan (ukes roommate on the mainland, acts like brothers with uke but with a sexual undertone, works at tangbangs restaurant, ukes only weakness), Tangbang (chinese guy who deals in information and secrets, operates a chinese restuarant as a front, is on the cruise as well for reasons unknown, bangs cover one eye), Minling (tangbang’s messenger underling that’s also working for seme), Kim Jaeyeon (ukes stepmom), Joo Sangkyung (ukes father, apparently left an enormous fortune for uke in the form of wikileaks that could blackmail all the big corporations to bankruptcy), hwang (the Max (name of the cruise ship), wagner (bald bodyguard who works for seme)

they kiss 10, 12, 14, 18, 20, 21, 44, 46, 57, 77,78,86 they do it 13, 15, 50, 61 11 seme tells uke he likes him 13 they do it for the first time (not lovingly though- seme got jealous and it’s more like an aggressive fuck) 17 uke tells seme he loves him (seme knows he loves uke too but hasn’t said it yet) 29 flashback to when uke first noticed seme and instantly admired him and 33 when he sort of develops feelings from afar 36 uke’s flashback thoughts from the future: that even if he were forced to go back he would still want to spend every moment he got with seme 37 when uke knows for a fact he likes seme 43 uke’s reaction to when seme told him he likes him 46 fast forward to more present day and seme’s still not over uke 63 when uke got beat up 68 uke breaks up w/ seme 70 uke leaves and seme promises he’ll never stop looking for him and once he finds him uke’s is his 76 seme finds uke after 4 years of searching and they see each other at the bar uke works at for first time in years 77 seme asks uke to go out with him and uke agrees- they kiss, sleep together etc etc 78 uke agrees to move in together with seme

vol 3 chp 2 2.23 -if he ends u- smoking boo mark this 3 they start showing feelings for one another- seme asks if they can do it bc he wants to and not blackmail and uke agrees 5 uke thinks about how he wants to be by seme’s side and tells seme he loves him vol 2 1 uke thinking about how much he loves seme, clears up seme’s misunderstanding that he can still stay even if he loses a match, tells seme directly that he loves him 2 uke realizes seme was boxing for him 4 seme goes back to uke quickly but has to leave since that gang has home wiretapped vol 3 1 seme sacrifices himself thinking it would make uke happy but uke cries finding him dying