akuma_river's manga / #trauma(23)

People say that he is lying, always lied, or so forth. But that is wrong. He has dissociative identity disorder instead of creating an alternate personality he chooses to forget the bad things. Everything bad that hurts him gets overwritten. A fight with his lover gets erased but in turn he doesn't understand why they no longer talk and instead fade away. This is because he forgot the fight and thus cannot make up with his lover. He becomes a prostitute for women but he forgets all about it afterwards and just takes the money. He lives life as if was drifting from one happy moment to the next editing out all of the bad things. It may not even be a conscious choice, just something bad happens and he wishes he could forget the bad thing and he does. The one weird thing to me is how he suddenly remembers everything. Usually a patient would need years of therapy to achieve that.

This is homophobia in action. It is a child's understanding from being raised to believe boys can only like girls and to like boys is perverted. If they had been exposed to the thinking that boys can like boys and it is normal then this separation because of his feelings of love and fear of being like the rapist would've never happened. Homophobia and their child-like minds caused the misunderstandings.

Part of a series: 1) Sangatsu Boujitsu, Kuma o Hirotta (2009) [2 chapters] 2) Rokugatsu no Hengen-san (2010) 3) Shichigatsu no Kousaten (2012) 4) Kyuugatsu no Sayonara (2014) .

Part of a series: 1) Barairo no Kenkyuu to Hanakurafu Kimi (2014) http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/barairo_no_kenkyuu_to_hanakurafu_kimi/ 2) Asa to Mitya (2015) http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/asa_to_mitya/ .