This is really psychological.... I cannot imagine how that would feel - having your own "idol" do those horrible things to you. The one you've looked up to your whole life. It was a roller coaster ride. I kennat deny tho, the seme as a teacher looks soooo hot! The story definitely touched a lot of topics in society that can open one's mind. A must read (for those who are strong enough to handle the incest part)
Mofuku no Hanayome