Silver Ash's manga / #Journalist(7)

Last ch 4.5 Yep, didn’t remember them. (Ch 4.5)

Complete ch 53 I’m highly impressed and interested in this. Fuck. We only know two of their names, everyone else has a title they go by or names are just foregone. It is such a powerful storytelling tool. Fuuuuuck! Clark is fucked upon his own right, he isn’t void of emotion but doesn’t feel them on the same level as everyone else, it’s like his sensitivity is turned down. Alex is dealing with depression, ptsd, more stuff with names and criteria I could never totally gather, Alex’s emotions aren’t void, he feels almost too deeply at times. He does almost have a switch, not to mention he doesn’t experience emotions the same way as someone normally would. They contrast each other really nicely. Social disorders clashing and mending. I don’t know if this is actually a romance so I’m not sure how things are going to end, the doctor however is their link and the reason for Clark to worry, he’s at least somewhat of a weakness, and he’s going to interfere with the flow because, he cares about Alex. Where Clark doesn’t. I need to know more about their relationship. (As of ch 20) Clark’s plan lowkey backfired on him because his ex was safer being Alex’s doctor, bound by ethics. Now Alex knows that Clark cares, or at least did, for the psychiatrist. Which puts him personally in danger as Alex is feeling feelings for Clark. While Clark isn’t really on that page. Alex might end up hurting Clark in one of those moments during sex too. Makes you think and wonder. How much is Alex going to feel and is Clark ever going to feel something real for Alex. (Ch 28) Big questions now, what is Alex going to give him? Is the psychiatrist alive and okay? Will Clark ever love Alex, and if not will that keep him safe from being murdered? Does Alex already love Clark or is it affection from someone he’s simply having sex with? Will Alex kill people he’s not in love with? Does that police statement have a bigger meaning (likely not)? If Clark and the psychiatrist only briefly dated, then why the rings? I have so many thoughts about this story it’s driving me crazy. I want to know everything, fucking EVERYTHING! Alex my son, I don’t know if what you’re in love yet, but you’re walking that path sweetie. Clark my boy, you’re an idiot. (Ch. 32) Alex is too traumatized for this. (Ch. 34) Oliver and Tommy. They get names now, meaning they have greater importance in the story. Maybe to be killed. Fuck, Alex. I’m burdened with emotions and questions right now. How else can Clark handle Alex if it isn’t face on? Why do I get the feeling that Clark and Alex are going to fight and one of them is going to be killed? What if Alex does kill Clark before turning himself in? An act of love and desperation, his last. One of them has to go. (Ch 46) Clark played Alex from beginning to end. I loved reading this, it flows, it makes sense, I resonate with the characters. Mind games everywhere. Plus Clark just destroying Alex’s delusion of Clark loving him at the end, was magnificent. Fucking chefs kiss! (Ch 53)

Last ch 71 I thought I was going to be like Haesoo but I find myself to be more like Taekyung. Haesoo actually pisses me off, his attitude just isn’t for me. He’s stunning and whatever but characters like him bother me. People like him bother me. Him and Joowon. I’m guessing it gets better as Haesoo stops being whatever he’s being and embraces everything Taekyung is trying to give him. It’s not everything I wanted it to be. (Ch 27) Well, it got better but Taekyung is also showing up more so that curves things a lot in my opinion. I’m kind of over all this shit with Joowon though. About him and Haesoo as moody teenagers. It’s old and really hasn’t provided anything new and enriching to the storyline. After much thought I can say without a doubt, I only actually care about Asami Takuto in this whole god damn story. I’m less annoyed with Haesoo to where he’s fine, but pretty much everyone else is either garbage or annoying garbage. The managers are the exception because they put up with so much bullshit. I know there is a lot to go through still but I’m blasting through the boring shit at this point. I probably won’t touch this again until it’s done. It really hasn’t done much for me. (Ch 71)

Last ch 89 (Vol 12 Ch 1) I put off reading this because it was so long and I watched part of the animate version and didn’t understand much of what was going on. However, the context from the manga pulls in everything together so it’s all good. So glad I finally read this, I am, stunned by how enjoyable this story is. It’s not Stockholm, it’s not romance through rape either. It’s an attraction that blooms into need, dependency, and love. Asami cannot live without Akihito anymore. His condition super deteriorated after Feilong dangled communication with his boyf right in front of his face. Akihito already had his awakening when he chose his job instead of Asami that time Sudo had him all beat up. Separating them against their will is the last thing you want to do. Especially if it involves taking Akihito away from Asami, cause that’s basically just asking to be murdered. I hope Asami will tell Akihito that he loves him soon. Preferably when he’s not on his death bed, because I might cry if that’s the case, even if he’s gonna live, I don’t want this “I might die so I’m gonna tell you while I still can” kind of confession. It’s gonna make Akihito cry, it’s gonna make me cry! Just, get them back to Japan, have Akihito in Asami’s arms, and have Asami softly say, “aishiteru” (Ch 84.5) I said I didn’t want a deathbed confession! We knew it was coming because, duh. Doesn’t mean that it doesn’t hurt any less. I do wonder if they are gonna pull an amnesia stunt. My knowledge of manga says it’s possible. Agh. On the other hand, Asami all bandaged up sitting next to Akihito’s bed side is something I can vibe with. Akihito is always the one to wait, time to switch it up! (Ch 88) I knew this was coming the moment Akihito woke up and wasn’t searching for Asasmi. (Ch 89)

Complete ch 7 I didn’t know what I signed up for when I started. Out of nowhere I get this beautiful romance of boys falling in love. I adore everything about this. Taiga and Chiaki Haruomi have my heart, jesus christ! This is just stunning.

Complete ch 33 I think my favorite part about this, besides the fact that it puts the sex industry in beautiful lighting, is that it doesn’t try to be something deep and meaningful. Girl is passionate about doing her job even if it isn’t her first choice, boy falls in love with that and then even more so when getting to know girl. Boy and girl have hot sex together after finally confessing their mutual feelings. The coerced consent isn’t great but she didn’t fall in love because of the sex, so some points. The S&M club they went to was good but that’s not S&M. It’s D&S, plus B, totally different parts of BDSM. Bondage isn’t about hurting your partner unless it’s talked about before hand and both parties agree to it. I dream of the day I get my realistic and accurate BDSM club in fiction. Probably going to have to write that shit myself though! Hahaha...

Last ch 11 I like how it’s about a topic that is pretty unique in terms of usage in fiction, but creativity only takes you so far. (Ch 11)