Silver Ash's manga / #Abandonment Issues(6)

Complete ch 53 I’m highly impressed and interested in this. Fuck. We only know two of their names, everyone else has a title they go by or names are just foregone. It is such a powerful storytelling tool. Fuuuuuck! Clark is fucked upon his own right, he isn’t void of emotion but doesn’t feel them on the same level as everyone else, it’s like his sensitivity is turned down. Alex is dealing with depression, ptsd, more stuff with names and criteria I could never totally gather, Alex’s emotions aren’t void, he feels almost too deeply at times. He does almost have a switch, not to mention he doesn’t experience emotions the same way as someone normally would. They contrast each other really nicely. Social disorders clashing and mending. I don’t know if this is actually a romance so I’m not sure how things are going to end, the doctor however is their link and the reason for Clark to worry, he’s at least somewhat of a weakness, and he’s going to interfere with the flow because, he cares about Alex. Where Clark doesn’t. I need to know more about their relationship. (As of ch 20) Clark’s plan lowkey backfired on him because his ex was safer being Alex’s doctor, bound by ethics. Now Alex knows that Clark cares, or at least did, for the psychiatrist. Which puts him personally in danger as Alex is feeling feelings for Clark. While Clark isn’t really on that page. Alex might end up hurting Clark in one of those moments during sex too. Makes you think and wonder. How much is Alex going to feel and is Clark ever going to feel something real for Alex. (Ch 28) Big questions now, what is Alex going to give him? Is the psychiatrist alive and okay? Will Clark ever love Alex, and if not will that keep him safe from being murdered? Does Alex already love Clark or is it affection from someone he’s simply having sex with? Will Alex kill people he’s not in love with? Does that police statement have a bigger meaning (likely not)? If Clark and the psychiatrist only briefly dated, then why the rings? I have so many thoughts about this story it’s driving me crazy. I want to know everything, fucking EVERYTHING! Alex my son, I don’t know if what you’re in love yet, but you’re walking that path sweetie. Clark my boy, you’re an idiot. (Ch. 32) Alex is too traumatized for this. (Ch. 34) Oliver and Tommy. They get names now, meaning they have greater importance in the story. Maybe to be killed. Fuck, Alex. I’m burdened with emotions and questions right now. How else can Clark handle Alex if it isn’t face on? Why do I get the feeling that Clark and Alex are going to fight and one of them is going to be killed? What if Alex does kill Clark before turning himself in? An act of love and desperation, his last. One of them has to go. (Ch 46) Clark played Alex from beginning to end. I loved reading this, it flows, it makes sense, I resonate with the characters. Mind games everywhere. Plus Clark just destroying Alex’s delusion of Clark loving him at the end, was magnificent. Fucking chefs kiss! (Ch 53)

Complete ch 5.5 Second Book

Last ch 11

Complete ch 5.5 Multiple Stories but really only the first one is new. Other stories are, Lucky Item and Hitomi

Complete ch 4 Book 5 Kaoru’s breakdown and the buildup to it was so stunning. He’s so traumatized and it’s been a problem forever. He still has some ways to go but him and Daigo are gonna be okay

Ch 28