apopoi's manga / #psychological(43)

Read most chapters...it doesn't feel like my type of story but good story nonetheless...the bromance is going to be good from what the comments say but I haven't gotten to that yet ..the ml or other mc? He seems to have a lot on his shoulder and very on edge from what I know so far..the bromance I haven't seen yet it seems one sided so far from what I have read upto..some secondhand embarrassment here and there from mc.. Update: Currently at Ch120, I like it but it's hard to get back at it cuz of the momentum since it is action packed after all. I understand the ship between Dokja & Junghyuk now at least.. Update: Now at ch131, starting to lose interest:/

I got recommended this by a YouTube video with a title 'MC who is OP/hides his abilities ' and this was recommended and I have to say the narrator did a pretty good job in convincing me cuz now I WANNA WATCH IT!! Unfortunately I don't have a lot of time rn so later..an anti-hero can be a bit of a hit or miss for me*death note flahbacks' but I am always a lover of dark themes being explored so here I am!!..Sayonara!!

Just don't read it...u may wanna but don't..zon't do it *Nicki Minaj*..anyway cause of Philia rose I thought same author same quality..right? But no..how how?? Whatev..everything is so all over the place..the comments were so well thought out and seem to have more thought put on it than this story..the gurl who is seemingly weak is actually op..oooo so interesting *eye roll*..she have shit parents..her dad just abandoned/ sold her..her butler who seemed to be a good person tried to poison her when she came back..but for whatever reason tho the content is so heavy..it feels very light..the way it's handled..n the constant beauty shots r killing me..no literally..just NO MORE..aight? N that line uttered by ml toward the mc 'strong people r usually cold n weak people r a pushover but she is both gentle n strong'..OK? I don't know..it just seems very sleazy..the ml is a duke... WOW..didn't see that one coming!! Just tired...

Umm..what just happened..I'm pretty sure I spent more than an hour reading the 21 chapters over and over trying to make sense of all of the information dumping in this manhwa, but I haven't got a clue..So let me get this right, this isn't actually a reincarnation manhwa but a psychological one where the MC is under a delusion of some sorts cuz of her maid whom she supposedly killed...Is it canon that this is her 100th life? I mean in her flashback of some sorts, the way Nancy comforted her was by putting it in her mind that this was all a part of a novel, a dream and not real so I guess that explains her reckless behaviour.. Furthermore, I cannot for the life of me accept that it isn't the actual plot that's making me all confused but the shitty translation and making twists in the story just for the sake of it.. It literally makes no sense..so the ML isn't in love with her this time instead he is wary..good on him for trusting his guts cuz man that lady crazy!! The priest seems to be the one cleaning up the bodies that she mutilated, and killed with that rope..the former and latter are two different people btw. Her father seems to be in on it too.

I am intrigued!! The synopsis sealed the deal for me, the cover caught my attention but wow I wanna read it so much..gah!! Update: So I read upto Ch5 and so far I have no complaints, the ml does give off creepy vibes and is absolutely the murderer. The MC seems normal so far with his reasoning skills and all. The psychiatrist is not doing his job at all, telling MC "Everyone has a bad side, what matters is if they are good to you or not". Like what is that? MC is saying his neighbour is a potential murderer and he responds with that? Nuh-uh..and I thought psychiatrist couldn't become friends with their patient but they have been friends for seven years according to MC. He could be pretending, I think he is. The thing about the angel..so strange

I loved this when I read it with my sister. It's not as creepy as I thought it would be and doesn't border on pedophilia or power dynamic like other mangas with large age-gap. This feels more real and the characters emotions feels more genuine and reasonable. The ML struggling with his life and his siblings after the death of their parents and finding solace in the work of the MC (she's a writer). The little bro was cute too. I would honestly support him and MC too if that ship had any chance to sail. He caught feelings for her when they were children, after his parent's death he crouched down crying infront of their graves in the rain and the MC quietly sat by his side holding an umbrella sheltering him from the rain. No words had to be spoken and that panel warmed my heart.

I already read the earlier chapters of this and dropped it because it wasn't my cup of tea. Saying that, I am willing to give it another try because Lucy recommended it to me and informed me it gets better. Personally, when the top forced himself on the bottom and blood dripped from the bottom's ass, that's where I drew the line. It made me question things and put me in a sour mood. I know that the story will probably delve deeper into the psyche of the top considering from what Lucy said, that the top is beginning to trust and open up to the bottom. That tells me everything, what the author prioritise in their storytelling and so on and so forth. I was fully expecting the top to be head over heels in love with the bottom by now, bending to the bottom's every wish and whims but that does not seem to be the case. Maybe we get that sprinkled here and there but I have an inkling that that's not the forefront of this manhwa.

Read upto Ch5 and it honestly is a decent read. The plot is not too generic but I was surprised at the age gap between the seme and the uke (9 years). The uke was 28 when the seme was 19. The link between them would be that the uke sponsors him through his adoptive parents, tho they misuse that money and abuses him. He had a mother who used to drop him off at a church (he said sister in one of the flashbacks) who later died in a fire at the church where he was rescued by the uke. The uke has scars in his back which is supposedly from this scenario since the seme asked to see his back when they talked on the hospital. The seme has a female friend, who is always by his side, and who eventually as it turns out notifies the uke on his day-to-day activities in exchange for money (for her mom's surgery). She is a good person tho, as she sincerely expresses her worries and apologised. She even offered for him to stay at their house which the seme refuses. The seme mentally is not there. There are already signs of the 'psycho seme syndrome'. He is also very smart, as he is able to deduct things at a glance and has fair reasonable skills. He observes the uke and even his surroundings. Even him going to the rooftop was him testing out who was calling the police everytime since he did it so frequently that no-one took him seriously anymore. He set fire to his adoptive parent's house (rightfully so) in order to lure the uke out. Also, on finding out the uke is gay, what would be his reaction? Since the guy that the uke dates was the one he met in the elevator who thought that he was a thief. He was also mad that the uke referred to him as some kid he took pity on, and he also found out his profession (a lawyer).

I loved this more than I should. It has been a long time since I read it, but honestly I remember every detail. I won't go into talking about the plot or the characters since I don't feel like it. Honestly the concept was already very interesting to me, a stalker that does everything for u that one might deem tedious. That's a damn convenient thing, ain't it? Until it isn't. See...it messes with his mind. The MC leaves it alone until it gets to the point that it goes beyond that, beyond just cleaning his dishes, he appears before him, texts him, interferes with his life. The MC was already depressed so all this was a lot to him. Also, the stalker to noone's surprise has a mental illness. Yeah..stalking isn't a normal thing, who would've thought? He has a twin, who also stalks(?)/annoys another co-worker of his who opens up about it to the MC. When he first saw the MC, he couldn't understand since he seemed so lifeless unlike the one he annoys...who is a spitfire. The two eventually attains a happy ending since they fulfill eachother's needs. The tables turned (how the turned tables..) on the stalker when his twin helped the MC out to do the same thing he did to him. But he was happy at first, since he interpreted in his psychotic mind as him doting on him, giving him food, feeding him(since he was tied up!!). Until he started ignoring him, being indifferent to him then he started crying and being vulnerable. He was just like a child. I kinda felt pity for him and found him adorable (I know that's sickkk but..). Anyway, it was perfect in my eyes.

This man has been everywhere in my feed...a yandere that is a fool for his girl, acts like a puppy around her yet is a snake around others. Sign me up!! Update(2/9/23) : The art style is so weird, it feels like all the characters have eyebags and are insomniac. The premise is around lucid dreaming, when I come across that word all I can think about is ~I have this lucid dreams where I can't feel a thing~ by Juice World RIP. Anyway, the ml is batshit insane and he seems to have some history with the female lead. He's always in a hospital gown so go figure. The MC and the villain of this story go way back in elementary school where the villain was always alone and people talked behind her back about how she's so clingy and tries to control her friends yada yada yada. The MC takes the initiative to befriend her despite this but viola the rumours were right. She didn't allow her to hang out with her other friends and was very controlling towards her. The MC's snapping point was when she applied this makeup all over her then she cried and told her friends all about it. They then confronted her and told her to stay away from MC, the look on the villain's face was etched onto the MC's mind. I don't blame her, that is one ugly ass expression tbh. Anyway, she went through middle school relatively easily but the problem started on her first day of high school where *drum rolls* the villain is the Queen Bee. She gets bullied left and right so she starts writing about her experience online where she was given useless advice. One of which was to confide to an adult or call some childcare service. Her mom is like the mom from 'The Glory', that pretty much sums it up. She then sees things about lucid dreaming then is able to apply it right away. At first, she just spoke about all the feelings she had been bottling up then she starts getting physical with her then finally stabbing her. The very next day in school the villain was absent cuz she bled in her sleep. Though that didn't last long she recovered straight away. When asked about it, she said a white haired man attacked her with a knife in her sleep. That white haired man is the ml.. Wow!! I don't like any of the characters. They are kids so whatever. I skipped some chapters here and there but overall it's decent. I don't get how the villain is able to control the whole classroom, she isn't the brightest tool so no idea. All the characters are trash so I'm not rooting for anyone in particular. I'm not so sure about that dude who is an otaku, is he as nice as he seems? Currently on Ch20.