apopoi's manga / #Smut(83)

This is next level messed up shit that's happening rn. The age gap and the sadism and the masochism, the whip marks and the pill the seme gave uke. I feel like some things don't make sense even tho I am only 5 chapters in like why did uke show up suddenly after 6 years just to give that heirloom necklace back after leaving the little sadistic seme behind? I mean we know he loves him but that doesn't make sense right? Also the fact that uke can overpower seme but the situations he finds himself in are very *ahem*. The seme is such a red flag and not the charming kind. I can take possessiveness more than the normal person or overprotectiveness as well but WOW

The title is essentially the plot. How expected of a Japanese shoujo manga to have an overbearing and borderline yandere ML and a pushover and gullible MC. Although I prepared myself going into it, it irked me so much how the ML just decides everything and expects the MC to follow his wishes/demands. The first time they meet (again?). He just straights up kisses her, strips her, fingers her and fondles her breasts. That's not the worst part, the MC just goes along with it. Another thing is when she refuses to have sex with him and he is denied, he walks out all sappy like and the MC feels guilty and tries to apologize to him. That hurts me as a woman. Them having sex for hours even when MC told him to stop and he straight up replies 'I don't care'. Him seeing her make contact with the knight and him subtly slut shaming her while touching her saying 'It's bad when I do it? But Ok for him?' Like Sir that's sexual assault. Also in the sixth chapter, the og fl has a group of guys drug MC with aphrodisiac and had them strip her naked. That guy tried to rape her, ofcourse the ML shows up in the nick of time BUT I hate this. I hate that this kind of woman exist in this world who would have someone rape a fellow woman cuz of jealousy and possessiveness. The hypnotism power that og fl seems to have by making people look into her eyes does not ~surprisingly~ work on him. I wonder whyyy..

What an achievement!! My first time completing a YAOI manga ever!! I got pretty close with 'Love is an illusion' and the beginning of 'The King's maker' and I had to skip some parts of 'Lost in the Cloud' cuz the content disturbed me on a deep level. I'm not counting those mangas with less than 10 chapters..cuz why?? I like the story..the MC is pretty solid, I mean he doesn't back down when people are being pushy and downright rude..but he knows when to lose the fight like the ML..that guy is a criminal level so u have to keep your head down and do as he says..cuz he has a few loose screws in his head. The ML is alright..he is better than some of the other obsessive semes that are violent and even hurt the people they care about. I was worried for a second since he was a bit too rough to the uke. But the most he has done is hold his hands too hard to leave a bruise or yank his hair. He admitted he wanted to kill him cuz he abandoned him so he left him alone eventhough he knew which school he moved to and could manage to get his number if he wanted..but he is obssessed with the ML..that's for sure. Since he was a child, he was infatuated with him. Contrary to the MC's thought that he met the ML cuz of him being friends with his younger brother..our deranged ML approached his brother knowingly to get close to our MC. He was "conveniently" placed in the same class as him. It surprised me a bit that the ML was willing to let the MC go..like when he left him, he didn't visit his house and when he moved schools, he deliberately pretended not to know where he was. Even after 8 years, when he found out that his acquaintance was dating him, he just pulled some strings to get them to break up. But even then he didn't plan on going back to the MC's life..it was only when he went to his apartment (he lives there when he wants to but he has a separate house for himself) and saw the MC face to face that he forced his way into his life and is so adamant on not letting him run away this time. I like seeing things from the ML's perspective, it's fascinating seeing how his mind works and how he convinces himself and his train of thoughts. He indeed cares only for the ML..burning his grandpa's grave and the forest where he rested, then strangling his father near death and telling him to ask our MC to get back together with him. That incident the dad mentioned where he maimed a guy was a bit heavy. The MC's taste in man is truly second to none..in terms of trashy level that is. One cheated on him, one abused him, and others I have no idea. That model is bad news..he actually harm the MC so no to the no no no. Also the jinx that happens when he kisses someone or is being kissed by them is a placebo of some sorts, right? It has to be. It was caused by the ML. When the MC was caught kissing him when he was asleep (he asked him to so he could get better tho he doesn't remember) by his grandpa and therefore his social life was ruined..and he lost contact with his family for 8 whole years cuz of that very trauma.

This is it, the perfect mix of shounen-ai and yaoi. The ml is not overbearing to the point that it feels suffocating but enough to fulfill that craving and the MC although a pushover and a naive person has some degree of backbone and a stubborn personality to him. The sex scenes are so intimate and personal that it feels like we are intruding on their space rather than the author flaunting that they can write a smexy scene that is droolworthy. Ahh their dynamic is seriously adorable and it is not unrequited. The ML is as much in love as the MC is though he refuses to date him for personal reasons alluding to the fact that he is an orphan and the very relatable reason that he can't even look after himself so how is he supposed to care for another person? UPDATE (6/3/23): I am caught upto ch50 and the translations are not the best. I was under the impression that I hated clingy and crybaby uke but this uke Dojun is just so soft and squishy that I can only adore him. Jaehee is lucky, also his type is a puppy...the lengths he went through to get close to him was funny. He found his ideal type, what other girls he dated found to be burdensome like his possessiveness, persistence, walking home everyday and excessive skinship..he welcomed all of it. Also Dojun doesn't have a single muscle in his body..his tummy is so soft and I like how when Jaehee touches it, it has some fat to it

I already read the earlier chapters of this and dropped it because it wasn't my cup of tea. Saying that, I am willing to give it another try because Lucy recommended it to me and informed me it gets better. Personally, when the top forced himself on the bottom and blood dripped from the bottom's ass, that's where I drew the line. It made me question things and put me in a sour mood. I know that the story will probably delve deeper into the psyche of the top considering from what Lucy said, that the top is beginning to trust and open up to the bottom. That tells me everything, what the author prioritise in their storytelling and so on and so forth. I was fully expecting the top to be head over heels in love with the bottom by now, bending to the bottom's every wish and whims but that does not seem to be the case. Maybe we get that sprinkled here and there but I have an inkling that that's not the forefront of this manhwa.

Wait a minute..I already read this. Wow I wasn't expecting that. The gist of this story is powerful and shady figure comes across a young genius of a hacker trying to dig into their shady business. Of course the latter gets caught and the mission is put to a halt. The sex scenes I feel aren't the best that this medium has offered me but it's not the worst either. The dynamic is the same typical powerful and overbearing seme×pushover and timid uke so yeah..

Nah..the seme is a total simp!! I love it!! Unrequited love for 3 years and going strong? That's dedication right there. I like his personality too..he says the funniest stuff as well. When asked if he made any progress over his crush, he replied seriously "I made breakfast for him this morning, so we are basically a newly-wed" and him telling his junior "When you are in love, your facial muscles get messed up" when the junior told him he looked creepy with that smile on his face. The smile he had when he thought about the uke. Also I love how he is so weak to the uke, the way he never even thought of turning him in when he found out his identity as a villain then trying to make him quit even if he had to break a bone or two. He handcuffed him and hit him "very lightly" though he uncuffed him right away after the uke sobbed and told him everything. He even believed that he was blackmailed tho it is true, normally people would be suspicious but not him. And that is so daddy of him...you know what I mean? The boss I thought I would ship him to the uke to some extent but no..there is no competition for the seme. He is abusive and not in a hot way either. That statement right there is so wrong but you know what I mean! There is no sexual tension and chemistry between the two and I like that in hindsight. The uke is a victim in this situation. He was a kid when he was forced into this life, just for stealing chips in a convenient store he was coerced into this life. That is manipulation from an adult towards a kid. Also the sexual favours he makes him do..yuck!! Him saying that the only thing the uke was good at was sucking his dick was such a turn-off. Not to mention the dangerous situation he puts him in time and time again. He is not even doing the bare minimum like preparing a safety net for him to fall into, and his orders are so ridiculous. Telling him to rob the same bank he failed to rob the day before the very next day? That's foolishness and that shows how little he thinks of the uke and his safety. Also the redhead is pitiful being in love with that man? That blondie looked annoyed too when he asked if there was someone he fancied. He just responded "Yeah, a guy with a killer body. He has a nice ass" which by the way is such an asshole thing to say. A nice ass? For u to put your dick in? Fuck u and your narcissism. The redhead's foolishness and insecurity as well as his persistence to see his ass was what led him to the uke's identity being revealed. Though that's a good thing, the seme is a green flag so

I read chapter 1 then skipped to 50 to 65. Based on that, I love how the glasses guy is unhinged and very unproblematic. The top is also so cute. I love their dynamic so much. Also the bottom is so pretty I want to be like him.

A little incest never hurt nobody. UPDATE (28/02/23): So I read all of it which is upto ch5.5. So they are technically step-bros and not bros by blood, as the Lil bro likes to emphasize. The big bro is the uke and the Lil bro the seme, the former gay and the latter bi. When they were kids, their parents got married and on their first meeting, the uke held out his hand and brightly introduced himself while calling himself a big bro to the seme with the said seme hiding behind his mom's back and peeking repeating the words "big bro". So cute...right? Yeah, that dynamic took a complete 180 by the time they got older. The uke is a hairdresser with a shit taste in men and the housewife of the two. The seme a DJ and a part-time soba worker, and is a playboy who cannot commit. The seme is the one who catches feelings first. With them finding out about eachother's sexual identity by coming across eo with a man each by their side. They talk it out, then the seme asks if he is a top or a bottom and added that he himself was a top. The uke blushes to the top of his ears looking aside avoiding his gaze while saying abashedly "Why are you asking that?". Then the seme sits there stunned and continues thinking about the uke's face over and over again, the cherry on top was him hearing the uke rubbing one out and he himself turned hard. He tried avoiding him by going home late, with the excuse of work eventho he completed his set already. This went on for several days until the uke comes to his workplace ie the nightclub and comes across his friends who admitted that the Lil bro had a 'bro complex' which the uke seems unfazed by since we later find out he himself is the same. The seme makes up his mind, pursues him and later the uke feels the same way. They continue with their relationship smoothly while I as a reader already feel tension abrew, coming from a mile away and there it was..they visited their grandparents when the grandpa talks about wanting to see his grandchildren before he dies. Then the uke spirals and overthinks, telling the seme that they should remain as brothers, the seme reacts harshly but eventually accepts. Then he moves out. The uke is lonely and masturbates while thinking of him, making meals for two (unconsciously) and so on. Since he was always there, he took him for granted and so on. Weeks past and the seme asks to meet up and we see a change in demeanor, with him taking the initiative to raise his hands up to ask for the menu in the restaurant they were at while the uke was mid-way in doing the same thing. The uke is torn on seeing his lil bro get by just fine without him since he always looked after him in every way and pampered him. But what amazed me was his tenacity, he misses him badly but he is still convinced he is right and won't budge. Now this is where it happens: the reconciliation. How? The seme gets hurt and is in a hospital. As cliche as it is and a cheap way to resolve the conflict and get uke to admit his feelings back. I don't mind it because any other way would have been false to the established character trait of the uke so.. He cries and admits his feelings..very very dramatic. Then the seme mutters "I knew you felt the same way"..then viola. The end. The added half a chapter was them having sex and showing the uke's experience in the act...he was basically a 'pillow princess' but he takes initiative now with him giving him a skillful blowjob and spreading his asshole, telling him to put it in with a very erotic expression on his face blessing the seme with a full view of his ass. The seme spanked him and tells him not to act like he was used to it which he responded "I am used to it so I can't help it". Then they have sex.. uncensored sex. Also that tidbit of him wearing his lil bro underwear that is tiger-print or something and the seme's uncanny timing walking in at that moment...the uke was worried that he would be turned on but he was like "Ewww" atleast that aspect of them as brothers didn't change. Oh, also in the dream that the uke had where he confessed his feelings to the seme cuz duh...a dream. Then the seme's explanation was simply "Our relationship will not change, it will be simply be added on". That made me feel something. The seme is the type 'once he makes up his mind, he won't stop until he gets what he wants' but ofcourse he didn't give up. He slept two hours a day thinking about how to get by, taking the uke's concern in mind about appearances and whatnot. Ah! Maybe that was why he was admitted because...he only slept two hours a day for weeks on end so he fainted. That was a blonde moment, sorry!! His demeanor is such a lil bro personality, a girl by the name Juali once commented on my behaviour and said I behaved like the youngest sibling, which I am. And I responded by saying that people confuse me with the eldest and she was like "No way"..and she said her former crush was the same way who also happens to be the youngest...he was like a very bad student(?) not writing his homeworks, late and does not seem to care much etc so... He (the seme) also reminds me of Haruto somewhat tho he is the eldest. Also, another moment that I loved was him telling his bro to strip then the uke said "R-rape" then he stops and said to hit him if he didn't like it then the uke responded "I can't hit the face of my cute lil bro" then he smirked and said "You like this face?" which he nodded to. This wasn't smutty at all..it does have those scene which btw is uncensored like most mangas are but have the feel and vibe of 'shounen ai'

Now this feels like just fucking and fucking. Tbh I have just read upto 5 chapters so far out of the 10 but many people are unsatisfied with the ending, saying that it is disjointed and messy. So it kinda is like a rush ending. The main complaint was not enough scenes or moments with the male lead, Kendon and the mare being annoying. I do like the style of the bottom and like that he has multiple sex partners as well. In the latest chapter that I read, ie ch5 we found out that Kendon likes Risbel which was obvious from the earlier chapters and I can see why people are complaining about him paying more attention to Berner, he is trash through and through. Also love the added complex of the MC who is the senior feeling frustrated that his junior will surpass him or perchance already have.