apopoi's manga / #LOVED IT~!!! ^o^(3)

I like it. It shows potential being only five chapters in. There is grooming involved so if it's a sensitive subject, beware. The fl turns back 15 years in time to her dad's funeral, the same day the crown prince announced the breaking of their engagement. We find out later that it was the wish of her dad after being told to go to war on the prince's behalf after a ridiculous request made by his beloved (a hostage of a duchy). The prince was obsessed with her and agreed to her request to take salt only from their duchy and not from other imports, which to noone's surprise led to a rebellion. This pretty much sums up the current drama. Also, our male lead is significantly younger than MC who lived a life of abuse and torture to the point he thinks that the cuss word "Fuck" is his name. He says this upon meeting the fl, "you called for me" as she cusses after being almost raped by a mercenary hired by one of her maids to accompany her to the place of her exile, a barren and cold place (also her mom's place). The ml does not know how to speak, write and is not aware of social norms. He licks the fl's wounds as a form of first-aid. He reacts violently to seeing people, a village of them. He only accepts goodwill from the fl. Now, to get into the nitty-gritty of this. The fl is not of sane mind, she is incredibly selfish in her pursuit for revenge and has no qualms in using a child to accomplish it. It seems she convinces herself that it is okay considering how the ml ended up in the previous timeline 'the war hero' and 'the crown prince's dog'. She also reveals that she knows his actual name and that he is the illegitimate child of the Emperor born of a minor noble called 'Krono'. On finding this out, the Empress ordered an assassination on the Krono bloodline, children, pregnant women etc weren't spared. Well except the target of her anger was able to escape. I think the fl treats him even better after finding out about his identity and plans to use him, she even thinks that her father granted her this life and had given him to her as a gift to get revenge on the crown prince. I doubt the father is that kind of man, he seems to only want good things for her daughter. On the first page, we see him calling his daughter by a term of endearment and promising her the noblest title following suit her becoming the crown prince's fiancee. The dude's a war hero hailed warmly by the public who mourned his death, he was a Marquise btw. Now the grooming part, it is safe to say it is grooming. First, the age gap. Like Missy is a full adult, maybe a teenager in her current body but paired with her previous timeline, an adult. Secondly, the ml is a child who was abused. He thought his name was "Fuck", he puts his hands up to guard himself when he saw the fl lifting her hand tho her intent was to pat him on the head, he only accepts goodwill from the fl, she is the first one to show him goodwill, like it's a very imbalanced relationship to say the least. Thirdly, the fl although she intended to give him a warm home and teach him basic skills like writing or reading and speaking even, on finding out his identity, that line is blurred. Her selfish wish of revenge triumphs over her morality, and she fully intends on using him to exact her revenge. We can argue that because he is the bastard son of the Emperor, he was fated to live a bloodied life but even so..The fl can reverse the situation that will inevitably happen like in her previous life but does not do so. That does not cross her mind in the slightest, she plans on using him. A bit more merciful than the crown prince perhaps but it's a life of debauchery. Also their eventual relationship change as stated in the description. The ml ofcourse is in love with her tho it is up for debate, is it love it is it a result of many psychological factors playing into it? Uh..I just read a spoiler that said that the ml also regressed and that he planned everything and that he pretended to be child to gain the fl's trust, that he is a total obsessive yandere. Welp that changes everything. Tho I don't mind it, I think it is a bit cowardly of the author to add that in maybe for fear of being accused of promoting grooming? I don't know but it could have been an excellent commentary on grooming and male grooming in particular. People are blind to the latter and accepts it as it is.

Welp.. This was one of the things I read when I was deep in the incest trap. I still am to some extent but I don't seek it out now (only in fiction btw since I like taboo and controversial issues). I was pleasantly surprised by the exploration of the lil bro's inferiority complex and his blind devotion to his big brother. I'm glad they addressed that in this manga, it sticks out from other mangas in the same vein as this because unlike the others, this actually tells us the ins and outs of why he feels this way. In addition to that, it also sheds light on how this relationship affects their life outside their little twincest bubble. The big brother is very interesting in hindsight.. He never thought of his lil bro like that but he didn't seem to mind it when he found his brother touching him.. Since he felt good. This sentiment is also shared by the seme..he thinks to himself 'this is how nii-san has always been, he just goes with things that give him pleasure or satisfaction'. He doesn't think or function like the normal person. The idolization part also fascinates me. I love the drama aspect of it too and like the thought of other people regarding their dynamic.. Even his(the seme) friend comments if it's not tiring wiping his ass for him. I also love how this extends over to their adulthood when they move out or go job hunting and not just students. It makes the story more solid that way. That's all.

OH MY GOD...I did not expect to find this again..I love it...I love the whole premise of it...The tests and the goddess residing.. The period..The time travelling aspect..10/10.