Tikky's manga / #Weak Female Lead(1)

*Sidenote: I just read up to Chapter 15 - with that I mean I read until I reached it, but didn't read Chapter 15 itself. So I was going into this story blindly, after an exhausting day out at the local royal castle turned museum with my sister. It was a display of a vain collection of goods, devoid of any rhyme or reason. But even walking through a bunch of elaborately decorated rooms that had nothing but pretty junk and loads of mirrors, I can now appreciate the true thought and love that must have gone into this showcase by direct comparison to this story. Color me surprised, wenn I saw the words "Strong Female Lead" with the popular tags for this story. Because I see nothing of that. But please, let me elaborate why the protagonist is a bleak plank of wood and I actually like the Nacht family. [Part one: The relationship with her Sister and Family, as well as the FL herself in her first life] We go into the story, seeing a character looking nothing like a Maid, greeting her beloved sister, the sister that everone else also loved, while gaining spiteful looks herself. I just say that because after a few chapters, the story decides to make her look more pitiful and gives her the constant identity of her sister's maid at that same age, so I leave that information here and move on to the actual gripes I have with the story and, more so, its protagonist, Sienna. Sienna's family supposedly mistreated her her whole life: She was taken from an orphanage, which means she's not a noble, she will have to prove herself first, as nobody knows her. True, she must have had it harder, but first, she wasn't actually treated that badly. Yes, her sister wanted that great room and wasn't declined, but she was also a noble. Sienna had her room and was thrilled about her own room and it wasn't even that small either. A noble would have different standards. Also, Sienna wasn't shown to ever ask for a room like the "Moon's Cradle" in the first place. Luck comes to those who are bold, because there is no such thing as luck, there's only toil and gain. Of course, if she asks for it and nobody else needs it, why not give it to her? What nonsense to be mad about that, even as an adult. Of course we know that Lorraina is shit, she also seems to have the depth of a cardboard cutout, with her instataneous hatred of Sienna's entire existence, but who knows, maybe she felt threatened by her, as she seems to have known about Sienna's apparently vast magic power. Does she have vast magic powers? Apparently I say, as it is made obvious she's going to be that first contractor of that "Named" necklace. Also, after stealing her powers, Lorraina splits that necklace by accident, so it's obvious its meant to be due to MCs powers she had recieved, even Sienna herself is, for once, not an imbecile and gets it right off the bat. So, unless we are instructed further, Lorraina hated Sienna from the beginning and for no reason at all, but to the extent that she desperately wished to kill her as painfully as possible; so much so, that she's devastated as she realizes that Sienna has somehow gotten ahold of a vial of poison and is about to kill herself fast. Aside from her though, no one desperately hates her. Yes, she got some harsh remarks thrown at her, after being a sad blob for years without trying to do anything but being a maid. They have maids, they never needed you to be one. So even as the author herself states later on that her sleeping in a maids room is an insult to the house of Nacht, she literally reads into it that saying that was an insult to HER somehow, because she always lived in that maid's room in her first life. Now, how does she not understand that even back then, nobody was happy with her being a fucking sad sack of bones, pretending to be a housemaid, while they brought her in as a potential future Archduchess? I'm guessing there will be more involved, like tricks that made them hate or dislike her in the first place, but in reality, her shitty behaviour would have warranted dislike in the first place and she was also of no use. It wasn't supposed to be an act of making a happy family in the first place, when they took her in, so why would someone decidedly useless be of any help? Yet, they never expelled her. She was the one to put herself down, they simply didn't hinder her, which also wasn't their job. Yet, as I said, I'm sure they will be further excused by being under the influence of magic or something like that. Anyway, the family didn't do much wrong, it was her that was guillable and naive the entire fucking time. I get it, she was young, so she did a lot of stupid things, but here's the true problem: You'd think she would change that in her second life. But, spoller alert: She doesn't. [Part two: Her second life and whatever she makes of it] Her sister Lorraina has not yet shown up, FL says she will arrive only half a year later. MC's now driven by nightmares, loves sleeping in a maid's room and generally exhausts everyone around her by constantly moping around like sour puss. Her family nothing but dotes on her, eventhough they are busy and have no reason to. But the story had at least the minimum decency of hinting on the fact that they are influenced by what seems to be their first life. I assume it's similar to the case of "Actually, I was the Real One" where FL was brought back after her death, by someone who couldn't stand what happened after she had died, as a result of her death. So maybe someone was sad, maybe it was found out that she was framed or the magic I assumed they were under was broken. So they rewound time somehow and now have emotional attachements due to that forgotten future, I presume. But that's just something I expect, I have no clue about it. Anyway. They are now being blissfully unaware of what happened, only started to know her and are overly protective and kind towards her. But all she does is sitting there, rejecting everything they are trying to give and constantly breaks down. I get it, she has a trauma from what has happened and it could be one way of reacting to something like that ... but here's the thing: Why would I want to watch someone like that? For a story, why would I want to read about a character that can only cry and lament about something she never had and won't even reluctantly TRY to obtain it in the first place? She has all the power - even if she really doesn't have affections for her family yet, at least she could pretend to have them and work toward a better future. If you see that people treat you well, work on having them dote on you. Just because that other bitch is coming in half a year, doesn't mean that all is lost. Make them LIKE you, then, maybe, they won't hate you already when she comes. WTF is wrong with her brain? I'm afraid to be disliked and discarded by them again ... so I will make them dislike me, so they will discard me as soon as possible. Bruh, if we go by what we were shown, she was already as useless as it gets in her first life and was never discarded. So what is the big idea here? I don't even understand her thought process that went into this, and frankly, I don't want to understand. I'm in and out of depression myself, but her sad display of nothingness is simply astonishing. You have a second chance and they give you everything you could want, so why don't you try to curry their favor? Why wouldn't you try to counter Lorraina before she even arrives? You already know all her ploys, so you can simply outsmart her. But instead, she sees the fucking necklace and is like: If that was my magic to begin with, at least that means I have another way of killing myself. You don't need some elaborate plan with a crazy magic artifact, just fucking throw yourself out the window or take a knife to your throat, since no one seems to supervise you enough to keep you from sleeping in the storage room, they won't even know. It just seems so retarded I can only laugh at that pretend tragic heroine shit. Just end your existence if you have nothing else to do with it, but you don't need to pretend that you have to resort to such complex ways to do it. [Part three: In fact, why don't you just kill yourself and be over with?] Seriously, just end yourself if you want to, you bleak fucking fuck.