Here U Are
i was crying those last few chapters GOD SO HELP ME. i’ve been closeted for a while now and every year just makes it even more unbearable, seeing those parents care and love their children just like how they used to just break me because i am so scared. i am so so so scared of disappointment. which is why i decided to lose weight and get better grades to appease my parents before i come out. but through my diets, i had developed an ed and through studying i gained depression and insomnia. its been really hard and no one knows and fuck it even i don’t know. i just want to be happy like them. i just want to love like them. i just want to make someone happy regardless of gender. i want to love someone the way i crave to be loved and i dont see how that is so wrong. i wish i have them. i wish i was them. i wish i’ll be happy.
Cherry Blossoms After Winter