it hurt. god, it hurt more than it should've. he loved him so much, or maybe lewis loved the time they spent. he loved adolph from ten year ago, that kid from highschool who loved him as much as he did. or maybe not. maybe lewis truly did love adolph despite everything. despite cheating. despite the abuse. despite the rape, the manipulation, the gaslightingă…ˇmaybe lewis' love for him was beyond that. and it hurts. because adolph doesn't deserve that. that crappy piece of shit bitch should've died instead. i wish, in the next life, the one they promised each other ... i wish lewis met the doctor instead. i wish it was him since the beginning because i know, i full know, lewis would've took that chemotherapy without a doubt. because there was gonna be someone worth living for. there was someone who was waiting for him to recover and lewis would've wanted that more than anything in the worldă…ˇbut no. he died thinking of someone who isn't even there anymore. the adolph he said his last words to were for the adolph he fell in love with. the adolph that deserved lewis. i hope the doctor finds happiness beyond this, he's the real mvp in this story. i hope lewis and him find each other the next life and never let each other go because that is what they deserve. they deserved to be happy. they deserve to love and be loved. they deserved each other. they deserve ten more years ... where they could've loved each other the most. they desered better. and the thought of it hurts me.
10 years where I loved you the most